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It may seem strange to look at my blogs and see nothing at all. I was so upset with him but after some time I forgave him. In forgiving I had to delete everything. Delete it from my heart, my thoughts, and my blogs. I don't want to remember the hurt and the pain. I just want to move on and live and trust again. It was not easy gettting to this point. I thought I would forever hold his faults agians him. Some how I have found it in my heart to forgive. Do I trust him? To be perfectly honest? No, not yet. He has allot to prove for me to trust him again. We have had a set back that puts it a little further out there but I do see that if things keep going the way they are I will some day trust him again. My trust is a gift. It's not free and should not be expected from me. It can be gained again but only through time. I hope in my heart that he does nothing to ruin my trust in him agian or I will walk out the door. I wont be a door mat. If he had told me the truth then It better be that, the truth. God help him if he has lied to me and I find out. I hope that my blogs from now on are filled with love, hope and a promise of a great future togther. We have a lot to live for and are so good togther. So let's hope he does not blow the best thing he has going for him. It's a shame to lose your family because of stupidities! I don't know what our future holds and you know what? We are not even promised tomarrow. So I will love with all my heart today.

Posted by meli20 on 2008-03-13 21:37:54 | Rating:

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		I admire you. I really do. That's a very hard thing to accomplish, or even to attempt. To forgive, let go, and FIDO.. (FIDO--Forget It and Drive On.)
Posted by Goo on 2008-03-13 21:42:43


		I found the last two sentences interesting.
Posted by SubTomato on 2008-03-13 23:26:16


		i know how hard it is to trust someone again whoz broken ur faith..my bf broke my trust too..i had a hard time deciding what to do..ultimately you need to decide whether the relationship is worth it..if it is..then its good to work on it...i still wonder if he's telling me the truth at times...but we'll come out of it. im sure u will too... peace...
Posted by angelwings on 2008-03-14 07:43:14