Before I get going, I just want to let everyone know that the kid I was telling you about didn't kill himself.  IN fact, he has been in a better mood lately.

Yesterday I went to Fiesta Texas in San Antonio on the band trip.  I swapped groups most of the time, but the one person I stayed with was this sophomore, Matt, who I have been decent, but not great, friends with, ever since he moved here during the fall of last year.  I forgot to take my motion-sickness medicine with me so I couldn't ride much(not a big deal-I'm going again Friday with the Senior Class), and he was scared of rides.  We ended up having so much fun together & there wasn't a boring moment all day.  When the day was over & we got on the bus, he went to the back to his seat and I stayed at the front with my best friend, Alyssa, and I slept.  When we got about an hour from the place we were going to eat, I woke up.  Matt, Alyssa, this other senior Henry, and I sat together.  During the meal, I started thinking about Matt.  It wasn't a logical kind of thought like it was with Stanley.  with Stanley it was all thought and convenience, no feeling.  With Matt I just started feeling something for him like crazy.  He sat with me on the bus on the way home & he started a conversation about dating in the past and stuff like that.  Then he asked me if I was chasing anyone.  By this point I was chasing him, but couldn't say that!!!  I told him no one.  He kept bugging me about it.  I asked him & he said nobody.  He started joking about how I was chasing him.  I think he probably picked up on the vibes I was giving off, but oh well.  This is strange for two reasons:  (1) I haven't felt this kind of crush since I was in eighth grade.  I have had bf's since then, but none of them involved this much emotion.  (2)He's two years younger than me!  But he is really mature, adn I don't care.

This is freaking crazy.