Thoughts.com Blogs - Easter Break

Things have been kind of crazy over the holiday. Thursday, Friday, and Saturday I was out on Harper Ranch at the Easter Retreat. It was amazing. I really felt God calling me to go deeper with Him. I realized that that love I was searching for with Cody, Michael, and Preston was really a love I have to have with Him before I can give it to someone else. I feel that love now more than ever. I also felt a call to write a memior about the experiences I have had with death and my journey to being in love with Christ. The preacher, Louis, was amazing as always, and the music leader, John, was great too. He was hilarious. I went outside during the invitation at the end of one of the sermons to pray with Amanda about Cristina's developing eating disorder. Amanda use to have an eating disorder. This girl Logan told me some really personal stuff about getting blamed for shoplifting. Rachel told me her dad molested her. She's going to tell her mom soon. I pray for her so much. Her boyfriend told me he wants to propose to her. Now I really feel like I've reached a mature place inmy walk with God. I find myself excited to do a bible study. I'm getting so much more out of it. I'm also loving praying. I'm able to really feel God and establish that connection when I pray.

Sunday was EAster. I went to church then we went to my house for lunch, then to Margie's (tiffany/daena/travis/preston's grandma) for supper. I found out Michael has a girlfriend. surprisingly, I'm not that upset. I'm actually glad that he is happy. If God wants us to be together, he will arrange it so that it will happen later on down the road. The whole Preston and Cody thing seems far-fetched now. I definitely think that unless preston grows up, it would be stupid for me to date him. Cody...well, I'd have to get to know him better and learn about his views on God. I don't want another relationship where I'm pulled away from my faith.

I got a call from my dad last night saying that my Granny, who has been partially paralyzed for two years, now has congestive heart failure and the doctors cannot do anything more for her. They said it could be days, it could be a month, but it won't be long. Lora, Jessica, Aunt Jean, Aunt Martha, and Aunt Faye are leaving tonight or tomorrow for Dallas to go stay with ehr for the rest of the week and the weekend, but Carl, Justin, My dad, Shana, me, and maybe Rikki are going to leave Friday morning. Even though this is easier to understand than my young friends and parent's who have died, it's still hard, but I'm holding myself together better.