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Im notta happii person rite now...
its not that hard to tell...
yeah i have been tryin to have fun...
i put a smile on my face...
i try to get back to the NoRm of things...
But im not happii...
i feel little connection with people rite now...
almost as tho the people i was closest too dont really understand meeeh...
and i knew no one will ever think juss like meeeh...
but its hard when u feel like there is very few people to turn to...
and u kno u have people who wanna be there...
but its almost like u dont wanna talk about ne thing...
because u have to spare feelings and even u dont want people to judge...
and thinkin about it then there is no one to go to...
no one to catch up on my last five years of my life and not have them juss walk out...
like everyone seems to juss come and go in my life...
i have like one friend that im close to that has always been there through YEARS...
and will never turn away from meeeh even if they wanted to...
but honestly...
i have soooo many things that i have never been said...
soooo much of everything that juss has been MINE on MY own...
Like people kno the SkIMmeD over view of everything...
but no one knows wat i have been through...
NO one knows the pain i carry with meeeh each day...
I get sick of people Pretending everything in thier Life sucks...
when they havent been through shyt...
i get sick of the people who pretend things to get attention from everyone in the world...
i get sick of the people who dont stay true to themselves and they copy everyone in the world...
im honestly fed up with alot of people rite now...
i have been tryin my hardest not to loose contact with people...
soooo that i dont drive my own self MAD...
but Honestly...
u Kno its the people who love u the mostest...
when u turn Ur back to the world and try to run...
and its the people rite besides u...
that r the people in ur life forever...
its those people who matter the most...
it isnt the ones sayin dont go... dont run... dont hide...smile ... this and that...
No its the people that say YEAH LIFE SUCKS...
and they Join in with the movement...
the change...
the New...
every day in my Life always feels LIFE changing...
because on a true bases...
my Life tends to change alot...
Im 20 Years old
in the last 5 years...
i had a child...
graduated high school...
started college....
ina long term relationship...
ina abuisive relatioship...
ran away from home...
moved...
stayed in school when i didnt kno where my home was that day...
got outa a long ter abusive relationship...
raised a child as a single parent...
been afriad for my own safty and my childs...
moved home...
faced fears and facts...
stayed in school with good grades...
hated Life and Males...
Trusted people who left...
Lost a Friend.....
felt Helpless....
HoNestly there is prolly alot more.... but i have been through alot...
Most people dont KNO even half of these skimmed over things
let alone the Full skimmed version..with the stories behind them...
People like are sooo dwealing on
the broken nails of Life...
If i can try and be happii...
soooo can other people.... stop complaining....
IM NOTTA HAPPII PERSON ON THE INSIDE...
but i have been tryin MY best to move on...
and LIVE for the MOMENT...
honeslty why cant other people!!!
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Posted by meeehhk on 2007-10-23 20:59:08 | Rating: | Views: 78
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I have been through life.
I know how it all feels.
I care.
You may not believe that...but as I read this...tears flow down my cheeks.
I know how you feel.
You feel alone in the world.
You are afraid.
You are afraid that you will be alone..with no one to love you.
You are not alone...
and...I do now love you.
I am here....someone understands you.
I understand you perfectly.
Happiness is a state of mind.
Life is not about finding happiness.
It is about finding Love.
It is easy to find...
Love lives deep within us.
Find it....seek it.
Let it replace the anger that you have at the world.
This anger only hurts you honey...no one else.
Just you.
As a gift to yourself...seek that Love in you.
Peace.
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2007-10-28 23:07:02
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