so there's this guy...

STOP!!

I know what you're thinking (how stupid is this gonna be, she's just some silly lovesick teen, etc.) but maybe read on?? I don't even know if anyone's reading this, so whatever.

He's great.

I have some very strong convictions about love, marriage, relationships, etc., and I am saving myself for my future husband. So I am not interested in a super-committed serious relationship, so let's continue

He's a Christian too. He has such a passion for God and is a great leader and example to other guys In our group of friends. We're friends, and I don't want anything to get messed up at all.

And I'm starting to wonder if maybe this is something I should stray away from..I'f this is gonna hurt me or him in the process...I'm even starting to wonder if it's sinful...I think about him a lot.
not odd thoughts, or creepy like whatever, but just things like "Oh, He would think this is so funny" or "That reminds me of Him", etc. Is that the way god wants me to feel about a guy? I dunno.

and then there's this other girl.

I'm friends with her too, and she's friends with him...but they are very friendly with each other, and right now I feel like If he had to pick between spending time with her or me, he'd pick her...

this is so stupid///I'm going to bed


peace and love,
m