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IMPORTANT NOTICE:
Please don't read this if you feel hate towards suicidal people.
Since this is an entry about my suicidal feelings through the years.
I really don't want any criticism for that.
I've really had enough of it.
> ThAnKyOu ^_^ DoN't ThEy? FoR sOmE rEaSoN i Am AfRaId Of ShOwInG mY eMoTiOnS tO mY pArEnTs...
ThEy ALWAYS sAiD tHaT i Am SuPpOsEd To Be A "hApPy KiD"...
AnD tHaT i'M nOt SuPpOsEd To HaVe DePrEsSiVe ThOuGhTs! No, I dOn'T tHiNk LiFe Is A bItCh... ...BeCaUsE iT's NoT hIs FaUlT... _
As I sAiD - "bAd EmOtIoNs ArE FORBIDDEN" ...fOr SoMe TiMe. I tRiEd To TaLk To "GoD" yEsTeRdAy... I aSkEd WhY i Am AlIvE
...hE sAiD i HaVe To LiStEn To MySeLf... JUST IMAGINE wAkInG uP aFtEr A fAiLeD aTtEmPt...
TERRIFYING >_< ... ...AGAIN... T_T |
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Posted by mazohystic_innocence on 2007-08-18 04:08:22 | Rating: | Views: 195
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I'm going to take a wild guess here and guess that you don't feel loved by your parents. I think many people who feel unloved slide into depression and some become suicidal. What you need to understand is that, unless you are obnoxious and mean, if people don't love you it's THEIR problem, not your fault, especially if it's your parents. Some people just don't know how to give love. If we're lucky, we have at least one parent who can give us love, but many of us don't have even that. You have to not take rejection personally or to judge yourself by how others treat you. You have to let go of your ego a little and not expect too much from people. Try giving love (not to the boneheads who don't love you though). If you give love, it distracts you from your ego needs and your problems, and it sometimes comes back to you.
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Posted by friendofnemo
on 2007-08-18 04:36:01
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P.S. Your English is very good!
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Posted by friendofnemo
on 2007-08-18 04:36:37
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KEEP ON KEEPING ON!! And thanks for the comments!! Much apprieciated
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Posted by lovebillyjoe
on 2007-08-18 07:14:12
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Thank you both for the comments ^.^
friendofnemo, that was probably the most accurate wild guess anyone has made about me. Yep, and I've been told a million times I shouldn't blame myself for stupid reasons... I just don't know how to break that habit :/
I'll have your words in mind, thanks ^_^
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Posted by mazohystic_innocence
on 2007-08-19 08:27:39
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my parents are the same way. I've been having suicidal thoughts for about a year or so now. My parents think i should be happy go lucky. I just hope you don't let them and other people who feel that way, depress you even more, or allow them to feel hurt by their feelings. I hope you begin to feel better because depression and suicidal thoughts suck.
xoxo
Ellie Cohutta
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Posted by pure_life411
on 2007-08-19 17:18:51
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You are an amazing writer. You express yourself very well. Try thinking about the things you ARE instead of what you are not. I believe somewhere inside you are a sane, secure, wonderful young woman. The things you have been told all your life are untrue about you, truly by your writing you are amazing.
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Posted by Erynne
on 2007-08-19 20:13:48
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pure_life411 -> aww :/ I feel so sorry for you [yep, it definately sucks]. Well, I'll try your advice. It's about time I gained some damn confidence ^_^
Erynne -> thank you for the compliments and the pep-talk ^.^ Really made me feel better! ^_^ Hugz!
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Posted by mazohystic_innocence
on 2007-08-23 00:09:13
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