It's not so easy, this new way of life...even something as simple as grocery shopping is a whole new experience. Tossing out the rigidity and obessesiveness with dieting, food and nutrition I've lived with since I was about 10 years old is liberating...and strange. Taking the TIME to sit down, relax, eat slowly, look around, find the joy in every bite, every sound, every moment...it's what I've always worked towards but this is a major new piece to the puzzle.
The rewards are obvious and instant...presence, radiance, bliss. And my body...is shrinking. I eat brie and bread and drink wine and have lovely little deserts and my body is getting smaller, sexier...back to her truly beautiful, curvy, healthy self. Such a paradox...I stopped limiting myself, stopped denying the things I want, and now I see the changes I have pushed so hard to create just happening, effortlessly.
And this has had a magnificent domino effect on my entire life...I feel more social...I look around my apartment and see what's possible, beyond what is...I'm creating beauty in my life all around me. I've done this work on my inner landscape for years, never really the world around me.
Most surprising of all, I think, is finding myself wanting to share in this new life with someone really special, luscious, wonderful, kindred...
Isn't is amazing what a little freedom can bring?
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