Sometimes progress ain't all it's made out to be. As I sat last night and watched a movie I love, Reality Bites, which was all shot in 1994, I was noticing how much simpler and more lovely life was from that simplicity. Remembering life in the mid-90s, when cell phones weren't a factor, the internet didn't exist outside of Universities and there was a pervasive sense of naive positivity despite an intense recession...I miss that.
So I'm sitting here and wondering if I can literally go backwards in how I live. I already keep internet access out of my apartment despite NUMEROUS complaints from bosses and family, and I chucked my microwave 6 years ago (just for health reasons). But now I'm feeling like getting my land line turned back on, decreasing my cell minutes to the bare minimum so it's just for driving emergencies and embracing the simple joys of walking out my door, making sure my machine is on and being on my own, free as a bird.
But it's more than that, it's a way of live I miss...something a bit more Bohemian, artistic, truthful. I still have elements of that, to be sure, but as I sit and eyeball a community of beautiful old craftsman bungalows near Old Town Pasadena, I imagine returning to wood floors, real apartments and a life that's more in line with who I am. I'd still keep my job for now, I have it good here, but to live someplace I love to come home to, where it's a place that's "real", beautiful, comfortable, bigger and peaceful...set up a room just for creativity and yoga so I can go there to write, practice guitar, do Kundalini and Hatha...give the boys (my two cat brothers) a little sunporch or something as their own kingdom...go back to ceiling fans in the summer, maybe a small window unit in the bedroom...laundrymats every couple of weeks...space for friends to come visit and hang out...being near a fun, beautiful old neighborhood...the wheels are turning.
The other option is a loft downtown; a nice open space someplace great, walking distance to so much downtown culture, vibrant new energy...limitless options.
But wherever I go and whatever I do, I want to go backwards in time and reclaim a life of simplicity, focus and freedom.
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