So months later Im still having an affair with this guy while being married to another.  I find myself spending more time with my boyfriend than i do my husband. Here i have this perfect married life, I dont have to work, we have a good home, everything is taken care of. Then I have this boyfriend who adores me, he recently landed a good  job and weve become more serious. I even bring up getting a place together. He doesnt play games with me anymore and he shows me he loves me. We have a good relationship and most importantly he supports me in everything i do. I feel like I can talk to him and hes here for me. I have chosen who i want to be with and that is my boyfriend. I dont want to hurt my husband anymore. Hes too good for it and doesnt deserve it. I was exposed a few months ago...he found some pictures of me and my boyfriend kissing..what could i say? I made up most bogus story ever. i felt bad inside and i still do to this day. im at home working on my marriage and trying to play housewife but inside i miss my boyfriend. i used to wonder if risking everything i have is worth it but im starting to believe it is. there are some things i dont like about my boyfriend...wen were together we stay in a room all day and hang out. to some its good but for me i like to go out and have fun. this guy loves to have sex 5 times a day! at first it was amazing but now its really wearing me out i wana have a talk with him and i will soon. another thing is he is jealous over my guy friends. he likes to be completly private with me and doesnt like it when i talk to my friends on the phone its like he wants me all to himself. this can be smothering to me at times. other than that we are really good together. my husband is the perfect guy any girl would want. i ask him to do something and he jumps! he has a steady good job, he takes care of all the bills and hes a step father to my son. when i was sick he was there for me and even now hes still here for me. guess i just lost the love i had for him. even though i still have them both i need to stick with one im tired of going back and forth. on the outside im sure some people may think its fun to have two in your life but it isnt..it hurts everyone involved...wish me luck!