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He's not talking to me

He's now not talking to me.

The love he professes ohnl extends so far.

And what of the promises he makes? Which will he keep? And which will he break?

It would be fine, we could establish some kid of modern day marriage, if it weren't for me.

I liked the days where he he would tell me I was his world, where he claimed the world was paler without me by his side - the days when these feelings were mutual.

Those days are gone, fool on me for thinking things would never change.

Now I feel he's started a new life - one where old friends lose their importance, what about old lovers?

A new life with new acquaintances. He says I don't fit in, I dont' know how to have fun with these guys, that I'm not pub girl (I love beer?).

A new life where coming home is drag. Where friends and their girls enjoy each others' company and he delays having to come home to his wife.

Where in all of this, there is nothing wrong except my actions and overreactions?

So like I said, it would all be fine if I could acdept a new arrnagement, one where I would want to party without him, to exclude him from my friends and act without regard for his feelings.

But I can't. I am stuck in those old days where the world just ain't as bright without him.

And now I grapple with a breaking heart, definign a new relationship where I accept I am part of his world at his choosing, where his social life is his own, and mine is shared, an open book.

I'll see how long I can do this, how long I can keep this up, or whether impromptu evenings alone will deepen the dissatisfaction, and ultimately, unhappiness

Posted by madai on 2009-07-03 10:32:44 | Rating: