Do you ever think too much? Well that has been me lately, and of course an idle mind is the devil’s playground. I have just been in this funk lately. Not very talkative because I feel if I do talk I will hurt someone’s feelings or say something I shouldn’t.
It would go something like “What?! Just get away from me go get a JOB, maybe not what you want but something to help out! I don’t want to lose my house!” and who would want to be on the receiving end of that. I have tried to be more supportive I have prayed and tried to study my bible to give me strength to be a supportive wife but its hard.
Therefore I just drift off into thoughts about my past escapades with friends and being back in my old neighborhood playing kickball, riding bikes etc. Those were the days to go back to those carefree days!
I guess this week has been particularly tough as well because I lost my dad, May 6, 2001 R.I.P Daddy. I miss him so so much and I see my mom missing him a lot and she isn’t in the best health so on top of financial stress etc I also have the fear of losing another parent even though no one has said it. I just have this deep rooted fear and my mom is one of my best friends. Well this is all for now I’m at work and need to get back on task and don’t want to be at my desk tearing up.
-Later!