Have you ever felt like everything was bottleing up inside of you on the verge of explosion? I'm there. That's why I'm here. My life seems like a constant change, constantly changing from good to bad, to great to worse. One minute things are going great and I'm right where I feel I need to be, rolling down life's highway with cruise control on and then suddenly, from nowhere the road gets sharp and curvy and I find my foot on the breaks slowed down by a mess of problems. Frustrated doesn't even begin to describe me and I feel like I'm dealing with too much and not letting enough of it go, so here I am. I've been trying to write my first entry for three days now, I just dont know where to start, I feel consumed. This year has been an emotional rollercoaster, Lately I've just been sitting on this bed, my laptop at hand watching anything that falls under then comedy selection, smoking blunts and pretending my world isn't falling apart. I can't do this right now it's off to flat iron my hair. Consider this a practice run...