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11:08 am-
Last night, my parents left the house for several hours in the evening, which game me the prime opportunity to leave the house and have a date with My Love. He was having a bad day.. so an evening of rough sex was in order.. and it was delivered.. can you say "simultanious orgasm"? anyways, afterwards, we got food and sat in the parking lot, eating, just relaxing. then we started talking about parties, which came to a story about "hillbillies". I got quiet. I dated a hillbilly last year... its was a short lived fling, and i slept with him once, towards the end of the fling. The thing is, My Love knows this hillbilly. They aren't friends. They barely know each other... but they know of each other. I regret dating this guy.. I REALLY DO.. i regret sleeping with him even more... I told My Love about this, because i am too honest and i feel that he should know all about me and my past. This brought us to an INCREDIBLY awkward moment. When i told him that i dated this guy.. he was silent for a long time.. and i knew he wanted to ask me if i slept with him.. it was on his mind.. and he just had to know.. Then he got so angry with himself that he had to know.. and that something so insignificant was bothering him. I felt like a whore... I dont know why.. well, i do know why.. I was ashamed that i would even waste my time on some moron, that is below me. he is worthless, and a waste of flesh. My Love knows this.. and i cant help but think he thinks less of me.. I know he doesn't.. I know this fling has nothing to do with my relationship with My Love.. It was before i ever met My Love.. I dont know why this blew up to such a big thing.. Im sure it will pass..
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Posted by lusochick on 2008-02-06 14:45:30 | Rating: | Views: 96
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Okay... I always like to see good comments and advice on other peoples blog posts but I guess some people are "different" Lester has to accept all your past if he wants a future. All you can do is say "it's in the past."
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Posted by theotherjim
on 2008-02-06 16:17:46
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...are you ok now...still together?
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Posted by nathemmings
on 2008-02-06 16:38:17
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