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9:44pm--
I am at an age where college is almost done, and the path that i had previously decided to go down has been seriously altered. I see the problem at hand. Going to law school is no longer in my plans ( try telling me mother that one). What I really want is to be married to My Love. I always knew I was meant to be a mother, a stay at home mother. Time is against me... I dont find it fair to pressure My Love into marrying me, or proposing. So I will not do that, even though i deeply wish he would. It is true, it has only been a year, but by the time I graduate, it will be closer to two years. My mother is constantly trying to get me to start applying to law schools and interships at law firms. Neither of which interest me now.
Perhaps I should describe my character, or at least my former character to explain this frustration. I was raised in a dominate male society. It wasn't extreme, but it was definatly noticable. The men are the head of the house. Women are meant to be silent and submissive. Being a bit of a rebel by nature, I would apply myself to tasks that men would normally do. heavy lifting, manual labor, playing cards... etc. At a young age, I decided to be a laywer, because it was a profession of high standing and pay. But I have always been very good with children and I love them. I love to cook and take care of people, and this love has only come with time.
So the laywer idea is out, the housewife idea is in, and despite previous determinations, it is here to stay. Of course, i haven't said it out loud, because I so protested marriage and being a housewife... but I thought my mother would have noticed a change when all of my enthusiasm for law disappeared.... So what do i do? I have a mother who is determined to send me to a law school. I want to be married to My Love who isn't ready to be married quite yet. Do I just go through a few odd jobs until he pops the question? Am I being foolish for putting all my eggs in the "marriage basket"? I am almost positive that we will be married. We have talked about it many times before, and he has said so himself that he wants it. Do I look silly waiting around for him to marry me? What career should I look forward to now? Some business of some kind? Clearly, I am stuck between a rock, a hard place, a brick wall, and my ever loving mother.....
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Posted by lusochick on 2008-08-13 01:05:55 | Rating: | Views: 35
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I would stay in law just to get a certification to be a councilor of the law so you could do the wife/mother stuff but do counciling on the side for extra money. People are more likly to hire a councilor than a lawyer for simple legal matters, plus you could get into the area of helping kids. I don't know how that all works but you could find out.
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Posted by theotherjim
on 2008-08-14 00:43:01
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