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8:14 (pm)--
After much consideration, i decided to put my foot down and claim this little place as my own. I put all of my previous posts back, allowing them to be viewed to the public. I figure that if anyone works so hard to find all of my secrets, then they deserve to find the truth, no matter how grim it may be. There is a fire going in my living room. Its warm, inviting. All the things a fire should be. I dont know why I am noting it. I suppose it is a factor to my feelings at the moment. I feel warm, cozy, and at home, which is very new to me. I have been living in my house for 8 years now, but I dont feel at home most of the time. I see this place as a box, a pretty box, but a box none the less. When your life is a lie, nothing seems to fit. There is no comfort. But i have found it here, and in the arms of my love. It is a wonderful feeling, and i hope those that read this can experience it regularly. There is a storm brewing outside, the biggest one in 10 years. ( or so the meterologists say). I look forward to it. It gives me perspective on the sunny days, making me love them even more. I also look forward to Friday, for the simple fact that it is the day My Love and I go on our dates. Since our last snuggle date was such a success, i think the next one will be just as wonderful. We are going to make love, for the first time. Im excited for it, obviously. I think its going to be so much more spiritual than any of my other sexual experiences. I also think its going to be so much better than the others, for the simple fact that i never really enjoyed them. I assume it has to be deal with my past, and the things that happened to me. But i think he can change all of that, because he is so good at bringing out the best in me, and I, him.... There is someone, that i think i can call a friend at this point, who considers me to be an optimistic person. I thank him for the compliment, thought i dont know if it is accurate. Until about 2 months ago, I was incredibly bitter. Rage, anger, and grudges held onto me like parasites. My love has taken that away from me, and so i would have to thank him for this optimism that some people see in me. I am looking forward to the new year.. with optimism... i wish the same for everyone..
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Posted by lusochick on 2008-01-03 23:30:55 | Rating: | Views: 76
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