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they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
10:44am-- I have gone back to writting by the suggestion of a good friend. I trust that this place has not been found by anyone other than My Love... if i can call him that still. a little over a week ago, i want to say it was June 7th. My Love and I went to a big wedding. Everyone saw us......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-16 14:27:00 | Rating:

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"one headlight" continued...
12:29pm-- Sunday... father's day. My aunt and her family went home. despite how much of a pain in the ass her children are, i actually miss babysitting them. Went back inside the house, and i felt heavy. Not fat, or bloated. But heavy hearted. my steps were heavy, my breathing, my thoughts.......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-16 15:56:09 | Rating:

| Views: 47 | Comments: 1 | Tags: My Love heartbreak continued

unsent letter to My Love
Dearest love, It’s been a little over 24 hours since we last spoke. My heart, if I am able to find it, is full of anguish and an over whelming desire to feel your breath on my skin. What am I to do but wait and wonder… Am I in your thoughts? And if I am in then, are they longing......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-17 02:03:37 | Rating:

| Views: 30 | Comments: 0 | Tags: My Love painfull letter

a little better
11:44am-- France v. Italy game is on. Soccer I mean. Its a wonderful sport... A game the ends wars, and stops termoil. I am better today. Still very sad. still very broken, but gradually getting better. Healing and acceptance are setting in, numbness has not left me though. I still......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-17 15:00:15 | Rating:

| Views: 36 | Comments: 0 | Tags: better My Love heart broken

Tuwanda
10:09pm-- Some of those people that read this might recognize the name "Tuwanda" from a movie called "Fried Green Tomatoes" and after having a long hot shower, and some time. I have found Tuwanda, and I am becoming Tuwanda. I think that My Love will be pleasantly......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-18 01:39:30 | Rating:

| Views: 66 | Comments: 2 | Tags: Tuwanda My Love

The Text, and The Call
10:47pm-- Around this time yesterday, i received this text message from My Love. These past two days, i have been trying to figure out who i am and what i need. It has bee toguth with no one to talk to. This isn't that first time this situation has happened. I feel so disconnected from......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-19 02:39:00 | Rating:

| Views: 44 | Comments: 2 | Tags: My Love text call

Limbo
10:18 pm – I wrote this last night. Internet was down. Here, as far as could be heard, there was no weeping except of sighs which caused the eternal air to tremble; these resulted from grief without torture. - Dante's Inferno I dont know what is it about this hour.. this time......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-21 14:07:47 | Rating:

| Views: 30 | Comments: 0 | Tags: limbo My Love

Loss of Laughter
11:18am-- I found out at 6 in the morning. The loss of a loved one a never met, but i felt that i knew very well. George Carlin. I have been watching him since i was 15. Not very long in years, but important years. He helped shake the way i think. We both had a similar mentaltiy. The......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-23 14:22:05 | Rating:

| Views: 51 | Comments: 2 | Tags: George Carlin

All Better?
11:35 am Internet is possibly fixed for good. Who knows what will happen tomorrow.. I am here to update on the situation with My Love. On Saturday he went to a wedding. I text him to see how it was. He said that he was still at it. Then later on, he called... We talked for a while and......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-23 14:51:02 | Rating:

| Views: 39 | Comments: 1 | Tags: My Love

Monday Night Hope
10:34am-- My Love and I went on our date last night. Before that I went to the local store, bought some condoms, gum, and lube. Very awkward at the check out. There was a woman behind me with 2 children. she couldn't have been much older than me. she shot me a dirty glance after seeing the......Read More