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day 1
As of now, it is exactly midnight, December 12. I find that to be an interesting coicidence. Since this is my first entry on this site, i must admit, i am rather nervous. I have always been curious as to how the world would see me, and now it is acutally happening in a small and seemingly......Read More

Posted on: 2007-12-12 01:41:48 | Rating:

| Views: 120 | Comments: 3 | Tags: Love first

8 week date devastation
10:34-- Hello again. Tonight, i went on a date with my boyfriend, I will refer to him as "My Love". It started well. He took me to a restaurant that i really want to go to. We ate delicious food. He spent the evening admiring me with those curious brown eyes of his. It was......Read More

Posted on: 2007-12-15 00:06:21 | Rating:

| Views: 110 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Past rape boyfriend

Fat day
7:25 pm-- This morning, i woke up in a relatively good mood. I text a long message to my boyfriend, and got one in return. They day was normal. Then i saw my arch nemesis.... my full-body mirror. I hate that thing. I looked at myself in it, finding all of my pudgy parts, my little love......Read More

Posted on: 2007-12-16 21:05:59 | Rating:

| Views: 54 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Feeling fat

Intimate Corner of Sanity
2:39 pm-- I strongly believe that everyone should have an intimate corner of sanity, and this one of the few times i have visited it without being on the verge of a emotional or mental breakdown. Generally, I play poker, read a book, or write here, and I am greatful for this site, this vast......Read More

Posted on: 2007-12-28 17:55:26 | Rating:

| Views: 60 | Comments: 2 | Tags: Corner of sanity Love hope snuggle

Snuggle Date
10:49 (pm)-- It is Saturday night. I had my snuggle date with My Love last night. And, i have to admit, it was one of the most magical nights of my life. There was nothing special to it really. there were no flowers, or chocolates. No jewlery, no suprise. It was just a......Read More

Posted on: 2007-12-30 01:57:38 | Rating:

| Views: 81 | Comments: 0 | Tags: snuggle date

Betrayl of Stupidity
10:19 pm-- My Love has found this corner of sanity, and im hurt. He is on the phone now, apologizing, but im still so very hurt. this place was a sanctuary. a place for me, and only me. where i didn't have to worry about people. about judgement. I could just be myself, without censureship......Read More

Posted on: 2007-12-31 01:32:10 | Rating:

| Views: 39 | Comments: 1 | Tags: tainted corner discovered

Scratch a Lover, Find a Foe
10:48 (am)- Scratch a love, find a foe. its a very true and intimidating quote. I was scratched last night, partly by the curse of Curiosity, and partly by my false hope. Logically, it should come as no shock that a journal that is open to the public would be read by someone in the......Read More