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10:34 pm--
The events that i am going to unfold occured a little over 24 hours. I walked by a window yesterday after noon... and i noticed that my ass was following me.. and it was huge ( by some standards). That night ( which is last night) I was on the phone with My Love, as usual, and I pressed him about my weight. First i asked if he noticed that i had put on any pounds, particularly around my ass section. After much hesistation, he said yes. When i asked how long he had noticed it.. he said 3 weeks. Shock #1. After a moment of acceptance, i asked him how much weight would i have to gain to become unattractive. Ladies.. dont ask this question of your man, and expect a good answer. I was hoping for something like... 20lbs., which would put me in the 160's area. For my height, i would be pretty heavy. he said "about 5-8 pounds". Shock #2. I couldn't breathe. I realized that i was 5 pounds away from being ugly to my boyfriend.. After much fuming, raging and crying, I called my friend Adam.. my voice of reason, and he told me that this was my fault.. that i asked him his opinion.. his honest opinion and that he told me nothing that hadn't known before, which is that i gained weight. Tonight, we had our date, and a good hour of it was spent in a tense atmosphere. He wasn't sure why i was upset.. ( idiot) Then we just made up, after i talked about why i was upset.. and everything seemed fine after that.. I am still self conscious... still uncomfertable with my own weight... but im sure it will pass...
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Posted by lusochick on 2008-03-01 01:49:20 | Rating: | Views: 66
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