I will finally learn to tie my shoes like a normal person... at a healthy weight.  Right now I have to sit down and pull my leg up to me.  This results in the dreaded "side" tie.  When I stand up, my ties are facing each other.  You see, I am very overweight.  No way in &*%# that I could actually just bend over and tie the shoes.  Middle tie...the sign of a normal size person.

I know that I am fat.  I did not have any help with this.  I did it to myself.  Although it started innocently enough...it will not end that way.  I know exactly what I have done to myself. 

I started gain weight with my first child 15 yrs-ago.  I thought I had to EAT to have a healthy baby.  All I managed was 50 lbs of extra "stuff".  And...here I am 15 yrs-later.  Why was it so easy to just let it be...be comfortable in my fat suit?  Why did I think that it was okay to let myself go and do absolutely nothing about it?  Sure I have yoyo'd in the time between now and then, but I never really got it.

I get it now.  I am 2 weeks into my life change.  I feel different than ever before.  I have lost 8 lbs and gained an actual good attitude.  I have felt better than I have in years.  I am exercising and wanting to.  Kinda like I am someone else.  I am proud of myself.

What happened to change this?  Maybe I would like to actually fit in the airplane seat.  Maybe I would like to wear cute panties...(trust me, just because they make a thong in your size, doesn't mean you should wear it.)  Maybe I would like to see my kids grow up or grow old with my hubby. 

Maybe I just want to tie my shoes.