Today was weird and filled with so many surprises. The night before I did something I really regret. Well because of my actions I ended up in the hospital and the doctors sent a counselor in and we discussed somethings. She asked me a few questions, I answered them and then she laid it on me. I had the symptoms that would categorize me as being bipolar. WOW!! It hit me like a brick. Bipolar me, I use to tease people who were bipolar. How ironic? So, now I don't know if my s.o. will be ok with all of this. He, expressed to me that he really want me to get myself together and take care of me. This has been my plan and what I've been dying to do this whole time!! Why can't he or anyone else SEE THAT!!! WHY??!!! Anyway, I am doing this for me. I'm getting myself together for me!! NO ONE ELSE!!! I'm so tired of trying to please everyone and make everyone happy for their own benefit.  WHAT ABOUT ME? WHAT ABOUT MY NEEDS? So, it's whatever. I'm going to do me. I'm finally going to so what is best for Brittany, not what everyone else thinks is good for ME. I'm starting classes next week and I pray over the next course of the months everything will finally come together and make a difference in my life.