46605 Blog Feed: lovelyann 2008-07-09 04:07:25 lovelyann Your e-mail address 120608 2008-07-09 04:20:25                      Sometimes I asked myself what does it takes to be happy?
And when I reach for the answers, Ill just found my self quite, reminiscing about the wasted things that ive done, hoping that ill be able to go back and change it.
                      What does it take to be happy? Does it lies on the people around you, latest technology or in the achievement of each goals? I always believed that real happiness lies on the individual itself. If he/ she really strive for it then that’s it. But now I changed my outlook towards it. Because aside from you, theres one up there really know what’s the best for you.
                      What does it take to be happy when you taught that you’ve already there but that was nothing compared to the real happiness on life?
                      What does it take to be happy when you find yourself in the middle of the highway with so many directions pointing away from you?
                      Right now I do believed that in every directions whether you like it or not was pointed by God to where we best belong. And at the end of each road we can read a sign containing the learning we had that will guide us in every journey in life.
                     And in that every road, There were that footsteps carrying and guiding us towards our best journey.
And in the end it was not how many eyes looking at you but how you look yourself very well. It was not how many things we failed to do but how many times we have tried to rise up in every journey we faced.
                     It was not how many mastered degrees we had studied but how many lessons in life we have learned really counts most.
How long does it take to be happy? No one really knows but I am looking forward for it.

April 6, 2005

]]> 98863 2008-05-20 05:24:20

             I was busy walking in every streets of Intramuros searching. But the event don’t want me to go through, there were no flashes of lights and sounds of melodies. What was there was the dim light of the moon, the silence of the night.
            My courage told me to search and come but suddenly my sandals broke and when I looked up to the clock, the time whispered to my ears ‘its getting late’.
My heart lead me to those streets but those happenings keep knocking on that night.
              Where would I go?
               I am alone searching for the place that I do not even know the name. There was no one by my side to lean on. I don’t have a gift, what was I am holding at is the wishing bottle that I have spend my best doing it in that morning. I don’t even get dressed for that occasion. How I hope I had a genie!.
                Ive tried to look at on every persons faces, hoping that there was someone to lead me the way. I find some but at a spit of a time, they were gone leaving me all alone again.
              And then my mind told me how stupid I was!. I passed by those streets a couple of times alone but still I don’t have a way. Seems like I was invisible. I don’t want to be angry at somebody or bring the fault to them because a part of it was mine. But on that night I just felt that no one cares about me, No one wondered if Im just ok. No one taught that I am alone, No one understand that I am not all right. No one felt that I am waiting in vain.    Just no one did!
                All of this time I always think at somebody first before me but perhaps that night is the time to think mine first.
                My legs are tired!
                On the other hand, that was the time that I have only noticed the beauty of the walls; the brilliance of the lights. Giving me those sweet smile, whispering to me it was the gift of the night.
                Suddenly I have noticed that I was walking towards the way to go home. Only when I was already a passenger I remembered the title of the place. Perhaps I was not destined to see those lights, to hear those music. I was walking alone in that road again. Maybe I was not destined to witness and become part of that special night.
                Maybe I am just tired!
December 4, 2004
]]> 98862 2008-05-20 05:16:10         Maybe I hate changes. Maybe because the things become different the way I used to be. It would become the end of something and the beginning of the other or perhaps because I will miss something.
We are now in the year of what others have said “a new millenium’. And Im on my 19 years trying to prepare of what’s ahead of me. I can say that being 19 in this life was not a kid anymore. Being 19 is being excited for what the future will bring me. But of course, there is one thing I really missed. The laughters that Ive used to heard when I was a kid.
             As of now, so many hands of time had passed by since I was busy in building up my cookware set.
Right now, my cousins and I were hardly seeing each other. It’s not the same anymore as “Knocking on each others door to have a playmates”
Each and everyone of us was busy walking on the road of each other and for sometime, the joy of being a kid was vanished.
               Right now so many things had happening. I do not know what will happen next. There’s only one thing I know for sure, We cannot turn back the hands of time. And I am lucky enough to experienced what is like to be a kid surrounded by special persons that gave her the happiness of childhood.
                Changes was permanently happening in this world. All of the things are changing. What I know that will remain forever is the memories I have had when I was still a child in this world.
2000

]]> 95819 2008-05-12 06:18:31

     I do not know what and where I would be. Now I am alone walking down in this big road trying to be comfortable as the girls walking ahead of me.
      This is the reality. How come I’ve only noticed it now. I felt that I am just an ordinary human being in this big world.
        Perhaps this is the feeling of walking alone in your life. You will noticed every little creatures that passed by your footsteps, wondering if there is someone who knows you, smile and perhaps talk. But in the end of the road, you will only find yourself.
          I am beginning to have friends now. They were nice. But in every day that passed by, I will only found myself, walking alone in that road.
Silence that will remind me of the sound of the laughters and jokes. Silence that will show me the faces of my friends. Silence that will say “here I go again”
In 18 years of my life. Ive understand what it was like to be left out by my friends. Ill just wake up one morning and found out that they’ve had temporarily gone. On the other side, I try to find new friends. But as what it is, I am beginning to fed up. I am tired. Maybe because I am also afraid that it will happen again, to loose a friend.
Every faces and names of them were still in my heart. But I know some of them do not know me any more. Some of them may even forget the friendship that we had shared.
How nice to think of those memories again. And I know that some of those memories will remain memories forever. They will come and soon they will go. And the next thing ive known is that I am walking alone again in that road.
It was nice because that silence can help me to learn and understand myself very well. I can be more braver to look at those faces that passed by me. But in the end, it is much more happier if I passed again in that road not alone anymore.
July 4, 2004

]]> 95818 2008-05-12 06:05:30

No one still knows
How it begin
And how long it will last
And even though sometimes
Misfortunes become rough
Just hold it one second,
Give it a try
Because there is beauty
Within the serenity of life.

When sometime’s come
That you’ve feeling lost
And you cannot help it to just go
Bend your head it will help
Let your teardrops fall
For that is the true meaning
Of what life brings.

And when it seems
There’s nobody who cares
That sometimes left you to be alone,
Raised your head up and you will see
Still there’s one left there above
Just waiting for you
All this time.
October 6, 2005

]]> 95817 2008-05-12 05:55:18

The day was nearly over
But still those were never
The alphabet of the words
Of this silent life.

Do I find it
In the deepest of the ocean?
Or fly high in the deep blue sky?

Did Armstrong have seen it
In the cold dark night?
Written in the footstep
In the shadows of the moonlight.

Fly high, jump high
Let the rain help you
Catch the wind that is running
For it will lead you in somebody’s ear
So this silent will be broken
And those words will be heard.
July 2004
]]> 95815 2008-05-12 05:43:14

All those smiles were hidden
The atmosphere was left unspoken
And suddenly you’ve lost
Your way back home
And left me here all alone.

Where are those armor?
That used to shield me from pain
The warrior who will hand me his sword,
Everytime I fall.

Seems like you’ve turned away
And never come back
To the place where you prove to be
In the foots of the knights

And in the end
Its only when I’ve understand
All those things that left unsaid
Something telling me
Those words were not really mine
And maybe belong to someone else’s heart.

August 25, 2005
]]> 95814 2008-05-12 05:34:07

For a while we’ve been here
Busy sharing our thoughts together,
Hanging on from morning till dawn
Keeping me in company all this time.

Maybe for now just in here,
The things were not the same as before
But in every sorrow,
There’s that smile that will bring good luck
Wherever you are.

If you think the world turns out to you,
Just raise your head up
Say it out
It would not be our own hands
But someone was there
To save you through our hearts.

So just soar high
Beyond that clouds.
See the colors of the rainbow in every storm.
For we are sill on here
Keeping on listening from
The melody of our friendship.

2005
]]> 94844 2008-05-09 01:01:05

It seems that the night was over
Leaning on the days I remember
Hoping that someday it would be better,
To touch and praise for you forever.

Here I am in the foots of our savior.
This time I know I have to make a stand,
Coz I will make a choice
That id be with you forever.

Lead me to the footprints of tomorrow
Let my heart surrender to your glory
Coz I believe that you’re here
And will stand by my paths.

Oh I know that my rise is weakened,
That my voice is softer
But I do not felt my tears rolling
Coz I know your hands will rise
And wipe away my tears.

2005
]]> 94837 2008-05-09 00:52:30

Thank you for being the light of the new millennium,
For being the voice of the unwanted children
And for being the strength of the helpless one.

Thank you for bringing in faith,
In the weakened spirit
For helping us wondered the role of the young ones.
And for being a thorn
For the roses of the whole world.

Thanks be to God
For bringing your loving hand,
In each of our heart.
Thanks be to God
For bringing in to this world,
Truly an inspiration to be.

A big thank you,
Was all I can say
To the warrior who left his foot to our journey.
I will tell the world of your love,
POPE JOHN PAUL II

2005

]]> 94835 2008-05-09 00:44:58

Just trying to be liberty,
But she can never find eternity
Of this lonely life.
And on the end of the road,
She never found his way home
Only those strangers’ eyes saying,
That she’s a different one.

But even if nobody listen
On those strucking words that were spoken.
We will find the tears that are hiding
Racing in her soft cheeks falling.

Oh that she sometimes acts like a child
She sometimes lost her way to the end.
But nobody ever find
The truth ness of her heart
That she will always be a child.

Oh a child born in this world,
Fighting for what she believes in
Knocking happiness on this lonely hearts.
But those words were gone.
And in the end, nobody listen.

Here in our world
Its just nobody is perfect.
And it is hard to be good.
But even if nobody understand,
For she will always find in her,
Those eyes of the child hoping forever.

December 27, 2004
]]> 94827 2008-05-09 00:35:20

The light was hiding,
That day was over.
Will you ever find the way to reach the sky?
Or learn the way
To stop that cry.

People might be different.
These things can be so difficult.
Here you are walking in the shadow.
When will the traveler,
Find his way home?

The search still goes on,
Hiding on this lonely life.
But on the darkness of the night,
There is a star still shining
Guiding us towards the light.

Across the silence,
The bell rings.
In every teardrops that fall,
The rainbow will smile,
Knocking happiness in our lonely hearts.

Life sometimes is unfair.
But in every darkness that reveals,
A song can be heard.
Across the searching,
One child was born in the menger.
Whispering to us
“this is the way home towards our savior!”

Christmas day of 2004

]]> 92358 2008-05-01 23:18:52

Do you remember yesterday?
We were running around the street,
Playing across like we just don’t care.
The time when we used to conquer the world
With our own little hands.

Can you remember yesterday?
How it was to listen to the laughter of our days.
Being the star in the sky,
Flashing that big smile to everyone.

Yes we were child then..
Don’t know what’s life to be seen.
Yes we were child then..
Don’t know what the future will hold us.

And the colors of the rainbow ,
Was now shining in ahead
Ready to face the destiny
Each of us can lead

And now we step back the times
When the cries of the baby
Become cries of the lady.
Because now, the baby
Are ready to believe in dreams.

So many years have passed by our days.
And now it seems that were
Ready to be there.

But hold on for a second
And listen to the birds as it whispers:
It’s nice to be once a child.
It’s nice to listen to the laughter’s of our days.
And its nice to spread your wings
And fly high
October 17, 2004
]]> 92352 2008-05-01 23:09:53

Down on this empty street,
The song of the radio goes
Playing the music of the hearts
Living up the spirit of this life.

People walk, people run
Everybody’s busy on this life.
Walking in, walking out
But everybody was stranger on my sight.

The night was fine, the moon was bright
Telling me it’s not like
Whispering in, whispering out
Hoping that someday it will light

It’s been a while,
That this song was playing
It’s been this long
Since the star was hiding on this precious life.

And tonight was still,
The passengers keep on walking,
Getting ahead without turning
Whispering “its enough for better so goodbye”

July 28, 2004
]]> 92348 2008-05-01 23:03:07

I don’t know if these goodbyes
Seems like I will never witness
The way we laughs
The way we cries

I don’t know if tomorrows
The things that we’ve shared
Will forever remain or it goes..

Here I am again,
Thinking of what will happen.
So many questions,
I need a response
But the distance between us
Were miles after miles.

So I just lied
Here in the cold lonely bed
Waiting for a falling star
To just drop by
So that these loneliness
Will vanished the way as it should.
May 18, 2003

]]> 92345 2008-05-01 22:45:28

Strangers…
Looks like I’m a stranger
A wall in the layers of mountains
A candle in the midst of air going.

Strangers…
Do I am a stranger?
Getting the need for nothing
Creating the road for needing.

Yes I am a big stranger…
No one knows me,
No one even dare to look at me
No one, just no one
Have tried to help me.

2004
]]> 91052 2008-04-28 08:02:21 Go placidly amid the noise and haste and remember
To leave a 3 peso coin to a news paper boy

As far as possible without hesitations
Take the road of Santolan,, Ortigas or Shaw

Speak what you want peacefully and clearly
And listen to others
Even the banners and yellow ribbons
They too have their own story.

If you compare yourself with others,
You are a true Filipino;
For always you are much greater than the others.

Enjoy all your choice as well as your plans

Keep focus in your fight, however humble,
it is what you are fighting for

Be the voice of the people,
Especially do not try to let them down.
Neither be selfish about your choice,
For in the face of everybody it is pre-eminent as diamonds.

Take kindly the counsel of years to the nearest priest around the corner.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune
But do not distress yourself with expectation and illusion
Many trials are born with achievement and happiness

Beyond a hard time discipline, be victorious. You are a child of the Philippines, No less than the rich and the poor and whether or not it is clear to you. No doubt democracy is emerging, as it should.

With all the hunger, hardship and pain
“You are worth dying for”

Be glad. Strive to be a good citizen.
February 28, 2003
]]> 91045 2008-04-28 07:44:45 Cold winds once again here…
Rushing in every leaves,
Whispering in your ears
The sweet hymn of silver bells.

There may be little drops of white snow,
Your window may have
a set of light with different hue
And full of present
Underneath your tree.

Chocolates, Fruits and some delicacies
A new toy, A new dress
A new something for Christmas
This is what everybody wants.

But at one corner,
Some people dying,
Some are suffering
Some even crying
In this time,
What others called
“Christmas day”

Why don’t you give love,
As the song goes.
Save life, Save lives
Let there be light
In the eyes of little child,
Wishing happiness
On this special day.

Let they taste a smoked meat,
Let them driveway the gluttony of their stomach
Let them escape their dark tomorrow
And let them feel,
Just even for a while
That they are special.

Try to forget and forgive
And enemies be your friend
And let you feel the magic
Of a true Christmas brings.

December 18, 2002
]]> 91040 2008-04-28 07:31:39

These walls had been a witnessed

To the laughter and tears
Of a friendship whose starting to bloom.

Everyone can remember
How it begin and how it grows
Words like ‘Hi and Hello’
Served as a chain
That linked each other together.

Everyday same faces and smile,
Same company, same atmosphere.
Everyday we travel,
Together, Forever.

No one ever thought that someday
Well find each other
In separate rods.
No one ever dreamed that
In a blink of an eye,
Those days will soon be gone.

Now the walls were quiet,
The laughter and tears were gone
In the cool breeze of air,
It can never be heard.

Here I am standing,
Remembering the memories of friendship
That runs in our blood.

Across this beautiful place…
Like the birds and the flowers
That lived through sunshine and storms
Like the walls strongly standing.

How I hope like them,
Our friendship still lasts forever, together
As I stepped my feet in every stones,
As I passed by through this trees and grasses,
As I go and don’t know whereto be back

Even if we don’t often see each other
I know somewhat, somehow…
This place will remained and always will

The wall where in the year 2002
The friendship build
Between the class of
B. S. Biology block 1

November 8, 2002

]]> 91038 2008-04-28 07:16:31 In the silence of my life
I heard the sweet melody playing
I noticed a small candle lightning
And I heard a small voice saying
“How lucky you are, how lucky you are!

Friends, Friends
How lucky I am to have a friends,
Someone whom I can trust and lean on
And someone to make all things possible

Life is a miserable,
Without friends they say,
No one will listen and no one will hear
Nobody will react and nobody will approach.

But my friends are here
To help me cope with everything
They make my day brightier,
They make my sun shinier

How lucky I am?
This is the question I ask
To anyone and everyone who listened to me
Can you guess why?
Because there you are,
My melody….
My Music…
My Friends…

October 24, 2001 8:00 pm

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