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The GUY

HIM ... who is he? ONLY GOD KNOWS. The guy that I thought I am going to see in next few months. The guy that I am going to spend my love with. The guy that I thought I am going to spend my life with. The guy that I thought is going to do everything to see me. The guy that I thought is going to tell the whole world that he loves me. The guy that I thought is going to love me back as I have loved him. The guy that I thought that deserves my love. The guy that I who will look me in the eyes and say i love you. The guy that I thought I will see when I open my eyes every morning. The guy that I thought who is going and willing to sacrifice (not really everything because we have our own lives) for me. The guy that I thought that I can trust. The guy that I thought. I thoughts are just floating in the air and goes where the wind goes. I haven't met him, YES, this is ridiculous to feel this way when I haven't met and I haven't seen him. We have talked, YES (to this of course). He used to call me, I am always happy everytime he calls. Everytime I think about him I just want to stop thinking because I know I can only see him in my mind. He is like a bubble with one touch and he's gone and no where to be found. One sure thing is he keeps coming back in my mind and I can always remember how I felt when I first talked to him. Everything is going smoothly. Everything is nice. He can complete a week of my life. Smile is always painted on my lips. One thing that is normal :D. I think he is a cold type of person, a person that doesn't show his feelings most of the time to his partner, but sometimes he says things that is so so so good to hear. He doesn't like surprises, I think. He is brat. He wants he gets. If he said so, that's it. Take it or leave it. All or nothing. If he doesn't like this, he'll say that he doesn't but he's not going to tell you why he doesn't like. All he wants is for you to know that he doesn't like it, and that's it. You have to learn from it and live with it. I can learn and live with it but sometimes I get stubborn not to listen and still do what I think I like doing. What can possible be the home like of a brat boy and a stubborn girl living together? I have thought about it and I think that is very interesting. I have seen myself throwing knives and ice picks on the door when I see him coming in. And all he has to do is avoid the sharp objects to be planted on his body.... lol .... Funny scene and a bit scary. I admit that I am a stubborn person and I don't want to listen to what everybody has to say because what I think is right, I believe it to be right and what I think I will be happy doing it I will do it in any way that I could. I said to myself one time when I realized that I love this guy, that, I will be what he wanted me to be. I will work on this and I will work on my patience. I don't have patience as what I can say as what I am, so I will try to stretch my patience more than I ever could. But I know no matter how I want to change the way he wanted me to be, I know that one way or another the real me will still over power. I can say that I love him because I am willing to change what I have to change to work our relationship out. He is the only guy that I thought worth changing what I have to change about me. This guy is so mysterious. He got the name that is hunting me, I am so stressed hearing or reading his name. I believe he got the most common name ever....??? So I am going to live my life under the shaddow of his name the hunts me. I just wish he got another name.