I feel better already. I overreact sometimes, I think I am calm about things now. I think that if I have faith and live my life, it will all work out in the end. I just need to remember to trust in the grand scheme of things and stop thinking about every little thing that happens. If I do that I am just going to scare people away from me. I mean its ok to get a little stressed over people but I need to remember that I have high expectations of people sometimes too high. I need to just let it be and I should be ok. I hope. heheh.  So I am just going to do what I always do, and trust that as long as I am a good person, regardless of what happens, things will just go the way they are suppose to. I need to just let go of all the pain of being lied to and try to trust in people again. Maybe not people, but trust that things happen for a reason you meet people for a reason blah blah blah. I am just very tired of waiting for things to get better thinking they will only to find them to be more complicated and harder. Arrrrr Life.