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bordom!
I think I am going to die of straight up bordom living here. I can only clean so much. I can only read so much. I can only play video games so much.I can only paint so much. Its hard to be back here in my apartment alone, after spending a week with my friends and family. I just feel like I am too......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-01 23:15:00 | Rating:

| Views: 67 | Comments: 0 | Tags: bored sad pathetic lame stupid trapped friendless

retirement.
So.....I need to bitch about my love life. Why do I keep trying to have one anyway? arggh. I shouldn't have tried to find someone new, now I found this guy I like, but even though I am crazy about him I don't think he really wants to try to date me. He still has a profile up saying he is......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-21 18:26:21 | Rating:

| Views: 125 | Comments: 4 | Tags: arrgh love sad dating relaionships

shew.
I feel better already. I overreact sometimes, I think I am calm about things now. I think that if I have faith and live my life, it will all work out in the end. I just need to remember to trust in the grand scheme of things and stop thinking about every little thing that happens. If I do that I......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-22 22:44:07 | Rating:

| Views: 102 | Comments: 0 | Tags: life dating thoughts stress

do not nap.
I just woke up from a dream. In this dream, I was in a hospital room, and my exboyfriend came to visit me. I was sick or something. I was kinda shocked to see him, and then I find out he is evil and helping carry out some apocalyptic duty because apparently he is a minion of the......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-24 20:09:41 | Rating:

| Views: 60 | Comments: 0 | Tags: dream nightmare nails ex boyfriend scary weird depressed

of course
awesome. the guy I like doesn't like me. I just was informed by my dad that I can't move back home. I am trapped here in a city where I have no friends, no family. my job is torture and well I have hit rock fucking bottom. i feel like theres no way out. and its so funny because im typing this and......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-27 15:08:38 | Rating:

| Views: 111 | Comments: 2 | Tags: hurt pain depressed trapped alone

serenity
Well I accepted that I am ok with life being unfair, pesky, and occasionally overwhelming. I knew I had to rely on myself to pull myself out of the hole I have been in for the last few months. I realized that I am too hard on myself, and I finally forgave myself for not being perfect. Things went......Read More