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i hate the fact that i care so much i hate the fact that with each passing day your still on my mind... no matter how much i try to let go of it all i cant seem to do it. your not the first but by the far youve been the hardest. ive said it so many times in the past that i was done with you that it was the end for you and I that everything that happened meant nothing at all but i cant help to smile at the look of your name on my phone, at the sound of your voice seems to brighten up my day. i hate how i still get nervous when i talk to you and my mind goes blank i hate it all i wish i just want to rip you out of my life out of my head and most of all out of my heart i wish i could move on and not worry about what i can do to change it all i wish i was smarter i wish i made different choices maybe things would be different but what is done is done and this is the way its gotta be.. i hate how i still want to be there after getting oushed away i hate the fact that i still worry and want to make sure your ok i hate everything about this feeling i have for you i hate the fact that you make it seem that its always you who gets hurt how it seems that i never existed how you say its always you who gets lied to and its always you who falls for the wrong person how you cant find the right type of guy how you only attract players and dogs who just look for one thing and for the most part im sorry for that and im sorry that you think of me like that cause outta of everyone you should know how i really am and i beleive that im the opposite of it all but if you want to lie to yourself with all that bullshit go right ahead i wont stop you but i hate it all i dont want it at all but i cant help it there is something about you i cant let go something about you that makes me always think but with each passing day i hate everything a little bit more but i still love you but hopefully one day i will say goodbye i will finally let go of it all and when that day comes i hope you finally open your eyes and you realize whats in front of you i hope that one day you wake up and you see that person on the other side of the bed i wish that day youll still say that u made the right choice i wish you the best i wish you happiness cause you deserve it but i thought id just let you know that...i hate the fact that i love you
I close my eyes
And I smile, knowing that everything is alright
To the core, so close that door
Is this happening?
My breath is on your hair, I’m unaware
That you opened the blinds and let the city in
God, you held my hand and we stand
Just taking in everything
chorus:
And I knew it from the start
So my arms are opened wide
And your head is on my stomach
And we’re trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are on this 18th floor balcony
We’re both flying away...
So we talk about moms and dads
About family pasts
Just getting to know where we came from
Our hearts were on display
For all to see
I can’t believe this is happening to me
I raise my hand as if to show you I was yours
That I was so yours for the taking
I’m so yours for the taking
And that’s when I felt the wind pick up
I grabbed the rail while choking up
These words to say, And then you kissed me....
Chorus
And I’ll try to sleep to keep you in my dreams
Til’ I can bring you home with me
I’ll try to sleep, and when I do I’ll keep you in my dreams
Chorus
And I knew it from the start
So my arms are opened wide
And your head is on my stomach
No, we’re not going to sleep
Here we are on this 18th floor balcony
We’re both flying away...
(Second part of the song)
{{It’s Just Me}}
I lost a piece of me in you
I think I left it in your arms
I forget the reasons I got scared
But remembered that I cared quite a lot
You see, but lately I’ve been on my own
Yeh one, but one by choice
You see that’s a first for me, this only me
Yeh there’s only me
And I realize for once, it’s just me
It’s just me
It’s just me and I’ll find a way to make it
There’s no one left to stop me
Here I go
Can we take it from the top?
So what?
So long
So sad
I wanna be strong
Don’t try to take this from me
I’ve already spent living half my life undone
So what?
So long
So sad
I wanna be strong
Don’t try to take this from me
I’ve already spent my life living half undone
I’ve been talking to my Aunts and Uncles, Mom and Dad again
I’ve been finding out that I have what this world is called friends
I’ve tried to push them all away
They push me back and wanna stay
And that’s one good thing I have
I’m gonna fill a piece of me
I’m gonna feel at home
I’m gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone
I wanna feel a punch inside
My heart beat on the floor
I don’t wanna hurt no more
Yeh, It’s just me
It’s just me and I’ll find a way to make it
There’s no one left to stop me
Here I go
Can we take it from the top?
So what?
So long
So sad
I wanna be strong
Don’t try to take her from me
I’ve already spent my life living half undone
So what?
So long
So sad
I wanna be strong
Don’t try to take her from me
I’ve already spent my life living half undone
It’s me the one who won before
I used to smile but don’t no more
I’m living just to watch it all go by
ps. yes i have a sensative side, yes i think alot, yes i write my thoughts out and no im not afraid to speak it outloud, its just me and what comes to my mind...... its when the light disappears that everyones true colors appear
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Posted by louie19 on 2008-03-27 02:05:11 | Rating: | Views: 98
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