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First of all, I would like to wish everyone a very Happy New Year! I haven't blogged in about two weeks because of the hectic, stressful, busy, and interesting last two weeks of 2007 I've had!
My last entry was about this guy I met through an on-line dating service, and as of last night at midnight, we are now officially dating each other exclusively! He asked me to be his girlfriend after ringing in the New Year with my family. He didn't ask me in any out-of-this-world-romantic type of way, nor did he have any special speech planned out. He asked me and I accepted. I'm an old fashioned girl. I still believe in the whole "courting" phase of things. Nowadays it's rare to find a guy who will respect you and still pursue you even after not "putting out" on the 2nd or 3rd date.
Anyway, after the count down with my family, "BF" and I went to my friend's sister's house to party. "Irish boy" was there and this is the first time I've brought a guy with me and I think "Irish boy" was shocked. "Irish boy" had been trying to get in my pants the last couple months and I decided to totally cut him off 3 weeks ago. He even bought me a gift for Christmas and dropped it off at my house on Christmas Eve. He was probably shocked that I'm dating someone. Actually, maybe now he will get the hint that he has no chance anymore. "Irish boy" hurt me a lot too and it took me a long time to realize he was just playing me for a fool. I'm proud of myself for finally dropping him. I needed a guy who can be there for me not just physically, but emotionally too.
"X" has been trying to call the last couple of days. I haven't been picking up. Everytime I talk to him, I get confused about "BF". I want to give "BF" a chance and see where things go. But, I also know I'm not completely over "X" either. Sometimes I don't know what to do. Sometimes I'm relieved that it's over between me and "X". Then other times I feel guilty for dating someone else so soon. "X" knows I'm "dating" "BF", but what he doesn't know yet -and he will soon, is that "BF" is now my boyfriend officially. I wonder how he will react? Should I even tell him? Does "X" have the right to know who I'm with now and why?
I'm not even sure how serious and how this will work out. It's been great the last couple of weeks since I had a break from school. Now that a new semester is starting, and I am not about to let either one of my part-time jobs go, I'm not sure if "BF" and I will be able to make this relationship work. He lives 30 mins away, neither one of us has a car, he works full-time, I have school full-time with 2 part-time jobs, I don't know where we will find the time to actually spend time together. "BF" said we will deal with it when it comes. I just hope he knows what he's talking about!
It's a new year, and a new start, and already, I'm confused. =(
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Posted by lostandlonely on 2008-01-01 18:13:23 | Rating: | Views: 100
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