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I am so glad that we are getting on so well, but it confuses the hell out of me. Why cant we work this well together.
I guess that through my illness I have been a pain to live with, and despite what I may have said in some of my darker moments I do not blame him for going my god how much longer could i expect him to watch me in self destruct mode. Maybe him leaving was the kick up the ass I needed to pull myself out of the depression and get my head and life back in order. I havent taken a tablet in more than a week and I can see things so clearly now. I have more energy, can remain focused for more than ten minutes and as yet have not had any strange moments. I have felt down, thats only natural considering my marriage has fallen apart, but I have picked myself up without the aid of medication. I can now see the light where as before I was surrounded in darkness.
The question that is on my mind is did the anti depressants make matters worse? Could I have started my recovery long ago and possibly avoided the collapse of my marriage? Or have the tablets done their job and now I just no longer need them. I suppose thats something I will never know and I doubt that it would healthy to dwell on it.
The important thing is I'm OK and doing well, despite what has happened and I have to say I am proud of myself for that. |
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Posted by lostandalone on 2007-12-30 19:57:05 | Rating: | Views: 55
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I am proud of you for that too! What an accomplishment, to pull yourself from the darkness if only for a brief moment...Just do me a favor and don't rule the pills out..they may help you more than you know...*hugs*
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Posted by Rajah1116
on 2007-12-31 18:07:31
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we are all proud of you, i think avoiding the pills is good, i could so easily have stayed on mine forever when i needed them , they made life so easy to cope with, but that wasnt living, i am alive now, now i know my own thoughts and feelings, they are not made up by taking a little pill everyday.
good luck lost, you are realising how strong you are
love to you xxxxx
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Posted by missmarie
on 2008-01-02 09:05:47
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