Like the title says I'm in a dark place right now never felt so low in my life. Feeling hollow inside, laughing on the outside yet when I'm alone dispair takes over.  Darkness is slowly taking over my life and I have no strength to fight it.

My counsellor told me that I should write my feelings down, as I have problems with actually physically talk about them, but this is hard for me too when I try I just breakdown. My head is that scrambled I'm not sure how or what I really feel anyway.