We broke up November, 2006...a year after being together. I was going through my "sent mail" folder today and was reading through the e-mails. That's when I realized...I miss him. I used to tell myself that I don't love him, that I don't care for him, that he was just a phase through a college student's life, and that he probably didn't really care too much for me. But reading those e-mails and those chats that happened throughout the year that we were together, made me think of how much he truly meant to me. I miss him so much. He broke up with me. I was alright for a while. Convinced myself that I didn't really care. Did a good job at it for about a year...but now it's back to haunt me and I don't know what to do about it.

I miss him. I want to tell him, but what should I do? I can't contact him after all this time. He's my brother's friend...they still hang out, which is cool, but to hear his name and to hear his laughter every now and then tears my heart apart. Makes me feel like breaking down and crying. He's a catch, truly is. I wonder if we'll ever get back together. I pray for it.

Should I contact him? Should I say anything to him? What do I do? I never felt this way about anyone before. Someone help me, please. I'm feeling so weak, so helpless and so down. I have no one to talk to. I hate living alone so distant from family. It kills me. Someone help me..please!