Another day, another thought, but I wonder...does it deserve another blog? Oh well, even if it doesn't, I have no one else to talk to, so I'm going to write what's on my mind any way.
My friend left to Mexico or somewhere for a week, which is somewhat good just because I finally get some time to myself. The guy that went out on a walk with me the other night (the guy that kissed me)..yeah, well I never heard from him again. Big surprise there, eh? I haven't heard from many of my "friends" either.
The guy I met at the bar the other day turned out to be an angel from heaven. He seems like a great guy so far. We were supposed to go out on a date last night, but I wasn't really in the mood to go out and see anyone, so I told him I had to work. I know, I'm horrible. Another guy also called me last night, I didn't pick up his phone call either. Just taking some time off and away from the world.
I'm applying for another job, it sucks but oh well. My brother called me two days ago and wanted me to do some business with him. I told him I'd help him as much as I could. My dad has placed in another order, which means I should be busy with that as well. I don't know what to do anymore. My dad's business, my brothers business (he's family, I can't say no to him), school, work and now I'm applying for another job. I know I could probably ask my family for money and avoid the second job, but I haven't asked them for money in ages and I don't want to start now. It kills. I'm exhausted before I even start. I haven't eaten in two days now...I know I should eat, but I don't want to be wasting money. I'm starving, my stomach hates me and my body just wants to crash. I'll be going to eat later on today, maybe I can get something from the 99 cent store, or the dollar menu at McDonalds. Other than that, I can't really afford much. I still have my tuition to pay, rent, books (have to save money for next money...those alone are normally about $700), utilities, credit cards...oh dear.
I wonder what my parents would think if they knew how I was living. I wonder what my classmates would say? I mean, they're all spoiled with daddy's money. My father struggled to put us in those schools, but we managed. All my classmates wonder why it's taking me so long to graduate. How do I tell them that we're not all spoiled like them, some of us actually have to pay an arm and a leg, go hungry for days, and still manage to work, go to school, and have a little bit of fun while paying for school. I hate them! I always did and I always will! I hate them I hate them! I wish I could tell them that!
Oh well, that's the story of the day....so far at least. Have a fabulous weekend and may the blessings of God be with you all. Logging off from this side of California. Take care,
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