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Single for life
People tell me that I will probably live single for the rest of my life because I tend to push people away. I think they may be right. I hate them for that. I'm never satisfied with what I see in people, I always have this belief that people can be the best that they can be if only they try; so......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-08 13:58:05 | Rating:

| Views: 74 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Bored kill single

i want to die.
I want to die. I want to have the opportunity to finally rest in peace. Right now, I hate people, I hate the world, I hate myself....Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-09 11:26:33 | Rating:

| Views: 87 | Comments: 3 | Tags: die hate

Got the Temp. Restraining Order
I was finally able to obtain the temporary restraining order. My court hearing is in May. Wish me luck and pray for me. If I am not awarded a restraining order against this guy, he will probably hurt me more AFTER the failure of obtaining the restraining order, then he did BEFORE I even......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-18 17:34:04 | Rating:

| Views: 89 | Comments: 1 | Tags: TRO restraining order fear scared pain tears

I find it hard
I should be asleep right now, it's about 1:07am, and I have work early tomorrow morning (yes, I'm working on a Sunday), and I'm starting to get a cold, and I haven't slept properly in a few days. They all sound like good reasons, eh? One problem though...I can't get myself to go to sleep. When I......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-20 04:15:14 | Rating:

| Views: 87 | Comments: 0 | Tags: writing cold school stalker cry scared afraid

I hate him and I hate what he has done
I don’t know how much more I’ll be able to take. The few days wasted getting the stupid restraining order and talking to the police have pushed my school work behind. I haven’t been able to get a good night’s sleep in a while, when I do sleep, I have the same dream. My......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-23 00:57:58 | Rating:

| Views: 122 | Comments: 3 | Tags: hate stalker school life tired sleepy unproductive mad frustrated stressed

A lot of work to be done...little time to do them
It's Friday...I should be going out, right? Well, I guess not. I have a lot of school work to finish. I still have three term papers to write, five journals, and 1 quiz....all due by Monday. I would have no problem finishing a lot of it...except that I'm too tired, and quite honestly, I don't......Read More