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lying here tonight though, I felt it might help. I was just a bit sad, which is ou of character for me I think. Here is why:
I have no idea when I'm going to see my boyfriend next, hes 10000 miles away and no idea where he's going to work when he graduates in 8 weeks. This isn't exactly what is bothering me though. I think it is a cummulation of the feeling that I have this intense need to see him, and more of a want to see him than he feels for me. Maybe I just need to cut back, hold off, stop wanting to have every connection with him whenever I can. Its just so hard to do- everytime I tell myself to do that, I recoil at the very thought.
I think i find it a bit frightening to be so aware or someone at such great a distance. To care for and think of constantly, and no idea if you are just insane or if it's at least the same at both ends. I have no reason to think that it isn't, it's just sometimes I get that feeling.
It really sucks to be a woman sometimes, worrying is so annoying. its so much easier to just be with him, then i feel certain about everything.
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I know the feeling. I also worry too much.
And I have this constant need to be with him, as if it's an addiction. I guess it is too.
If I were you, I'd just go out and to things that makes you stop thinking about him all the time. See other people, anything that occupies your mind somehow.
Good luck :)
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Posted by incense
on 2008-09-08 05:21:05
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I'd imagine that'd be really heart-wrenching. I could never do a long-distance thing.
Good luck :) i hope everything is ok, and works out
EMeh<3
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Posted by hearxmexrawrr
on 2008-09-08 05:22:20
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