Today I had a massage and reiki treatment. I am a reiki master and have given lots of reikis however I have only had 4 myself - 2 given by my master, one by a friend and soul sister, the other today. I met this woman through yoga - i had been lucky enough to attend a 6 week course she ran a few months ago. In a small town like this it is very easy to miss out on something like this. When i told someone i was doing the yoga course they said I was lucky to be so new in town and be included in the yoga course...
Anyway, the amount of stress in my body was ridiculous - no amount of exercise, sex, or meditation seemed to be able to move it. i didn't feel so bad in the day but at night my body would be fighting against itself. Waking with headaches, grinding my teeth etc. So I booked in for a massage.
The massage was great. It bought me back to my body and then while I was lying relaxed on my tummy she began doing reiki. i saw a green light in my 3rd eye and felt lots of movement in my heart chakra - This was the first time I have had reiki on my back - the back is where we hold past life issues and things we'd rather push toward the back of our minds and lives and not deal with.
If you've been burnt at the stake, crusified, hung, strangulated or tortured in a past life for stating your beliefs its not surprising you carry over some baggage, fears and old responses.
I still have so much to learn about myself. When I close my heart and deny the truth that we are all one, I suffer. I still don't know why exactly i close my heart but I guess it doesn't matter. If I can identify when I am retreating, it will probably give me insight into why.
So, the smokescreen clears (no cigarettes for 2weeks). Physically, emotionally and psychologically it clears and I am led once again into myself to learn how to live here on this earth, in this body, in this moment.
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