Last night something happened. He called me. He called ME. HE called me. I was excited... of course!  But then.. the unthinkable happened... he said those words.. those words that are so hard to hear, "It's not really working out." Not working out? It took me a moment to realize what had just happened: my boyfriend of seven months had just broken up with me. At first I was trying to think of something I could say.. something I could say that would change his mind... haha. but then I realized something. I didn't want to change his mind. I wanted to do everything in my power for him to be happy.. even if that meant accepting the fact that friends is what is best. I didn't tell him this last night because I couldn't find words for a few minutes.. I was shocked .. but... understanding. Even though I understood I still couldn't hold back the tears. When they started.. they just wouldn't stop. I tried so hard to stop crying while I was on the phone.. but I just couldn't. Although I understood.. even agreed with him.. it's hard. It's hard not because i'm distraught or something.. nah.. it's because he was my first REAL guy.. the first guy that it was really hard to let go of. Was I in love with him? nah. Do I love him? hell ya. And I believe I always will. This is one of those instances where i really think that it's going to be okay.. and I know we're going to remain friends.  yeah. It's going to be okay. If he were reading this I'd like to say,

Dear Soqui,
          Thanks for giving me the best 7 months of my high school career. Thanks for being the sweetest boyfriend and for being there for me even when you probably just wanted to tell me to shut up and stop complaining...      Thanks for holding my hand. Thanks for being my first kiss. Thanks for the dances. Hey, we were prom court.  Thanks for showing me what kind of guy is the best.. and for setting the standard high. =]  Thanks for not breaking my heart by being jerk.  Instead you just filled it with happiness and I'm a better person for it.  So here's to bein' with you, dude. And here's to a stronger friendship than we ever had before.... cuz I'm counting on it. Goodbye, Soqui the boyfriend, hello, friend. Senior year is gonna be great.

Lizzy.

P.S. you're gonna make some girl so happy someday. Believe me.. i know
P.P.S. i'm so writing a song about this.. Thank you, sr, for the inspiration. =P