Thoughts.com Blogs - Since i've been gone!

Aww, i'm back!!:)
Did you miss me!! I'm so sorry I haven't been around lately. Just busy with Christmas I guess! haha but wow, new years eve is TOM. I can't WAIT!!:)
So, what have I been doing?
Well, a whole lot of NOTHING! Just work, work, and oh yeah, WORK! Christmas was good. First one without my grammie. That was somewhat hard. I went to two different doctors for my lump, and they are going to keep an eye on it. That means doc visits every two weeks. Joy to the world. But, i can't complain. Least it's not serious yet. And, there are millions of people that have it worse than me. Yes, I will admitt that I have been in and out of Emergency rooms and doctors offices all my life. I promise you I have more specialist then you will EVER have. But, being this way makes you look at how short life can be. One canNOT spend everyday WORRYING and feeling sorry about THEMSELVES. It's not why you were put on this earth. YOU, yes you, were put on this earth to Inspire people. To help people. to Enjoy life. Do NOT live today like you'll have tommorrow. It may not be there....

I realized this when Bobby* killed himself. No, we were not dating at the time, but we were still awesome friends. And, Bobby was NEVER suicidal. He had a great life. Full ride to college. All that. But, he messed up one time, and thought all that he had been working for would be takin away. So, he killed himself instead of dealing with the pain. EVERYONE needs to deal with there pain in a resonable matter. i suggest TALKING to people, running, writing, painting. Speak out. Someone will hear you. I promise I will....if you want me too!