A Letter to You
My tortured past kept this heart locked away
Darkness beneath my eyes from tears I cried each day
Every love I received was stripped from me
Until the day in fairytales I no longer believed
In all the years gone by I never know love
There was nothing more I felt I could be afraid of
The day I met you and the laughter we shared
In all my life, I could have never been prepared
In your arms I felt at home
I never knew until then that I was so alone
I close my eyes, I remember your body next to mine
Feelings I never felt before an unearthly devine
The words we wrote to each other everyday
The way you always kept me warm and safe
I miss seeing your reflection as I brush my teeth
I remember your head upon me as I sleep
How I fed you soup and gave you medicine when you were ill
Never thought of the strength in the feelings I would feel
Our bodies pressed together under the trickle of shower rain
I never knew so much pleasure could cause so much pain
Old memories flooded back filled my heart with doubt
I pushed you away but don't leave my heart would shout
Deception and betrayal was what I received
To protect my heart, I had to leave
Three way calls in disguise
You said nothing but I felt you on the line
Anger and pride stepped in the way
To say words I did not mean to say
In alliance with my friends you made me a fool
On the line I said untruths just to punish you
Angry words said, tears shed, souls torn apart
This is what love is, consequences of the heart
One year later and I still miss your smile
This emptiness in my heart lingers awhile
I realized my painful past needed to be set free
I simply wanted your understanding never pity
All I know is you make me better than I am
Because of you there is nothing I can't
I want to hold you in my arms once more
To see you walk through my open door
I realized no one else will do
I want no one if it is not you
I sacrifice for you all things from the past
Promise to you this time my love will last
Now, no one will stand in our way
I will be here waiting for you each day
For you I will never deceive nor cheat
This time I will stand beside you and never leave
No one will get in between us nor criticize our love
Once we grow old always you will be taken care of
To the ends of the earth I would walk for you
Lay my life on the line know this is true
I returned to where our memories began
Where we walked these paths hand in hand
I pray with all my heart you hear my voice
I forsake it all,you are for me the only choice
I hope this letter will not go in vain
In this world of chaos only you keep me sane
I blow kisses on the wind to you
Just like the way we used to do
I write these words with all my heart
I pray you return and we will never be apart
Know that I always be true
I say with all my heart for the very first time, that I love you
