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I've given up...
On making sense... There are so many different things that are fogging up my head and I can't really maneuver my way through it. I hate over thinking things, one little thing and my mind is off. Stirring up debris from places I do not want to go.

I want to lie here in a ball in the dark. And rest my aching mind, and be quiet and alone; to make or destroy myself. Either way, it has no good result. If I get better, it's temporary. I know that. If I spiral away, it's even worse.

One More Day. Until I am in the clear. I haven't injured myself. Tommorow is the day if I see if I can keep going this way. Oh but I itch so badly, urges are flowing through my veins. But I must not. I will not. I refuse. To give in. Tonight, at least.
Posted by lingeringmemory on 2008-04-11 20:42:05 | Rating: n/a | Views: 75


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Posted by
JadeDragonair
on 2008-04-11 20:58:30
 
I know how hard it can be. One thought brings on a thousand more never stopping. It is very tempting to have some silence if only for a little while.
 
 

Posted by
Tony51203
on 2008-04-11 23:33:34
 
one day, one hour, one minute at time. Each positive second is a victory. Each victory adds to the last. They build and buid, then comes the misstep.

Any backslide is only temporary as long as you stay positive focused, even when you're feeling negative.

Take each little victory, they're major achievement. Don't let a misstep discourage you, get right back on track.

Keep fighting, try your utmost to stay positive focused, even when every cell in your body is overflowing with negative energy.

It's not easy but that's what makes every single second a huge accomplishment worthy of shouting to the world.
 
 

Posted by
Tony51203
on 2008-04-11 23:35:25
 
and most important - never give up. Always tell yourself you're better then that and giving up only lets you down.
 
 


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