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I dont know what to think anymore. my heart says one thing but my head says another. my heart says i really like brandon and that he is the best thing that has ever happened to me but my head says im just going to get hurt and that he really doesnt like me. I dont know which to follow. i have always been afraid to love someone because i always feared i would get hurt. throughout my life i have always been hurt by the people i love, friends, family, ect. i want to say yes if he ever does ask me out but since he lives so far away i dont know what to do. he is the only guy who has ever said he liked me and he is the only guy i have ever felt this strongly about. burgy, the one that introduced me and brandon, really thinks i should go out with him if he ever does ask. she has told me she can tell he is really starting to care about me. i trust her on that because she has known him for 2 years and knowns when he means something or not. last night i was so frustrated about this whole situation that i was crying. i couldnt help it. brandon is the first guy that i have ever had this much confusion with. i really dont know what to do.

oh and thanks to all the people who answered my survey. i was asking that to see what other people would do so that way i could figure things out