Sometimes I find myself always thinking about where I stand in life.What am I suppose to do with my life? Who am I suppose to be with? I am the type of person who is always thinking about almost everything that I have done in my life so far.I recently graduated High School and I have no job right now because a few months back I lost the one I had due to a reason thats completly stupid and totally not my fault.I want to make an impact on somebody I want to change somebodys life forever.I am not sure how to do that or how I wanna approach it.I just know that is what I really want to do.Everybody keeps telling me to go to college which I do plan on doing but I am trying to get the money and I really dont know what school I really want to go to because I dont want to transfer or anything.I do get bored easily so the career I choose I dont want it to be boring and i want to have somewhat of a challenge with it for me to keep doing it.I have a wonderful boyfriend who I think I love alot but I am not completly sure because when I first met him I did like him a lil bit but I wasnt sure because I didnt really know him.He was into my friend at the time I met him and because of her we wouldnt have ever met.It was the first day of my senior year back in august when we met.I didnt know who all had the same lunch as me so when I saw she did I was stoked but then I saw she was holding hands with him so I thought that was her boyfriend but they were just talking they werent dating quite yet.She introduced me to him and he just kept staring at me for the whole lunch period and she kept giving me the evil eye because of it.I went to lunch the next day and he asked me where she was and she happened to be absent that day so he was talking to me along with his friend because nobody else sat at the table but us and then when lunch ended I was going to my 5th period class and he stopped me and gave me a hug a tight hug and then I went off to class.When I went back to lunch the 3rd day his friend and him asked me to go sit at a completly diffrent table with them so I went and then my friend who was talking to him and his ex girlfriend both came up to the table giving me dirty looks and asked him to go over there so they could talk but he told her no that he was busy having a conversation with me and his friend.They both walked away mad.He then asked me what I was doing friday night and asked for my number and I gave it to him and he gave me his number as well.He called and we went to the movies that night with his friend,him,brother,and his brothers 2 friends.Before he came to pick me up I found myself trying to make myself look completly beautiful for him.I didnt even realize that I could even like him a lil bit.So we went to the movies and I dont know what movie we saw because it wasnt that interesting nobody but us 3 were in the theater any way.Well I started to get a little cold so he put his arm around me so I put my head on his shoulder it all felt so perfect.Then I felt him staring at me and I stared back next thing I know he was kissing me and I didnt even think he liked me or that I liked him.So not even a week later after the movies we started dating before we dated we were always talking on the phone and he even came to my job to hang out with me for my break.I felt something I never felt before and I dont really know if I love him or not.What do u think?