This is to my brother, Craig

DRUGS.
you are affected by them.
you have turned to them when your life has been down.
what ever will i do if something happens to you.
there are so many bad things that can happen
so many bad things that are alread happening to your body
you dont see it
you dont feel it
you DONT know it
and i try so hard to think you will be okay
your going to go to a club and not take anything more then a pill
but you do
everytime you go.
its another drug
another experiment
i cant stand it anymore.
its time you grow up.
you should see what this does to the family because it tears us apart.
we are falling apart because of you.
Dad takes it out on mum blames her for you.
she wont say anything back.
i get in his face i scream "I hate you" to my father because of you
i tell him his "worthless" because of you.. he makes out your are a horrible person your not.
right now your doing bad things. Your becoming a bad person.
your becoming someone i dont know anymore.
we used to be CLOSE.
we acted like best friends.
Playing around all night, hanging out, chatting, laughing, having our own fun.
now i come and sit on your bed to get yelled at by you. pushed out your door.
i dont know the person you have become.
the drugs and people you call you friend are killing you.
they are killing you as the person you were.
and the litarlly killing you.
i dont believe i will have you be there to watch me turn 18.
watch me gett married.
it hurts so much to think you wont be here.
unless you change..you will lose everythiing starting with me.. and ending with your life.
i love you with all my heart i just cant take the pain anymore please please grow up and reliaze what you are doing PLEASE!