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Like tornados i think sometimes i am very self distructive. Make situations worse. Why am i never satisfied?

I think i have a serious problem. I don't know what to do? And it scares me that i may screw up the thing i treasure the most. My boyfriend.

People say i lead them on.. honestly thats not what i do. I talk honestly. I don't say things that i know will get a response. If you ask a question i will answer honestly. So why does that get me into an uncomfortable state. I am very confused.

This is what i fugured out. I can't have guy friends they think too much about the male genital (penis.) Then they ask me things i would never tell them.. I can't ever talk about that; people think it's a lead on. Fair enough i get that.

I see eveything so black and white sometimes. People get frustrated with me because of it. People ask me is this ok, is this cheating.. Of course if they want to interact like that it is. Thats such a big NO NO in my books. I dispise people that do.
Why would you hurt someone like that? More importantly why would you do something to someone that you wouldn't want done to you?

By this i mean people who ask me "to talk dirty with them or want to come over with me, just do what i consider such a sin"
I have said NO TO EVERY ONE OF THESE CREEPS" they never give up and it makes me so uncomfortable.

I love my aaron so much i don't know what i would do with out him in my life. I know he would be so jelous and hurt if he knew. But i don't know what to do... no one will take no for an answer. I know i honestly have not done anything. And i am so deeply sorry if i have ever lead anyone to believe any different. Honesty is my policy in life.

I don't like how some of these creeps make me feel.

No one seems to understand these days personal boundaries. This scares me..

lindy =(

i hate this scarey world we live in.