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when i was in college today, i was thinking bout the time when i was cutting about 3 months ago. i quit since then, and i havent tried it again. but today, i was thinking bout why i did it. i thought i did it to avoid my emotional pain by using physical pain, like most cutters do. but now i realize it wasnt just that. i sensed that my cutting wasnt just about the pain, but mostly to see it. when i saw my blood coming from my arms, it made me.....i dont know exactly how to explain.
i realized that the pain i got from it wasnt what gave me andrenaline rush, but to see my blood. thats why my cuts were so shallow. i didnt do it to feel pain, but to see my blood run. it kind of creeps me out
its really strange and hard to explain.
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Posted by leiya_790 on 2009-10-29 16:00:38 | Rating: | Views: 32
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