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Did I ever tell you that my mom isn't a Christian? And did I mention that I still live in the same house as her? Well, I just told you now if I hadn't before. Ok, so maybe technically my mom may be a Christian she may be going to heaven...she may have her fire insurance but she surely isn't living a Christian life...the life Jesus died to give us like in abundence (John 10:10)
My mom also is a very bitter, angry, ugly person...she has had bad stuff happen in her past (far past and recent past) but she doesn't forgive or give the pain to Jesus and so she holds onto it and this only creates her pain and when that pain becomes too much she takes is out on those of us who are closest to her...namely my dad and I. And the words she has said in the past of been brutal...I still deal with the lies she's thrown at me in her fits of anger. My dad and her don't have a relationship anymore....barely....she belittles him in ways that are unimaginable. And yet my dad keeps on loving her no matter what. And that my friends is a testiment to what God is doing in his life. If not for God my dad would have given up a long time ago...but what God has done in my dad's life has been simply amazing...I've seen God change his life. And God has changed my life and the people that know me best have seen the HUGE and I mean huge changes!
But, if I'm not mistaking since I've been growing in God and my dad has been growing in God my mom has only gotten angrier and her verbal attacks have only gotten worse on each of us. I'm no thealogian (can't even spell it!) but I see this as a beautiful picture of spritual warfare...a war that all of us who are living and really living for Jesus are fighting everyday. The closer we get to Jesus...the more we love Him, the more we are willing to give Him, the more power He gives to us, the more damage we do to satan's evil plot and so the worse the attacks are going to get.
I see so badly that my mom is hurting that she knows shes missing something and that something is a vital living relationship with the lover of her soul...and the closer I grow in that relationship the more hate if you will she has for me. Her angry words and put downs used to pierce my heart and live me broken and bleeding (sometimes literally) but know while the words sting I know they are lies from the evil one...and I know who to bring the pain to. The only one who loves me enough to hold me and draw me closer to him. The only one who will love me intimately forever no matter what. And to Him I will always be thankful. So, if you get a moment my friends say a prayer for my mother that she will find what her heart truely desires and she will find rest for her soul. And as far as me and my dad...just pray that daily we will continue to put on God's armor and fight with Him in this battle!
Just what I'm thinking about this morning (just had a confrotation with my mom that's why it's on my brain even before breakfast!)
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Posted by leannah10 on 2008-08-08 09:56:23 | Rating: | Views: 48
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I know from personal experience, these situations can be most difficult, but, just keep loving her and praying for her! I once saw a plaque that read something to this effect: "Those that are the meanest need love the most!"
My pastor always says, "When you don't know what else to do, just keep on doing the things you DO know to do!"
I will be praying for you, your mom and dad.
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Posted by Alice
on 2008-08-08 18:31:36
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It's hard when people you know aren't believers, but when its your parent it's so much harder. I kind of know the feeling my mother isn't a christian. She sometimes gets alittle defensive when we discuss God, but she's never spoke harshly to me. I'll put your mom to my daily prayer list, and I'll also pray for you and your dad. God bless, Lou
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Posted by christianity247
on 2008-08-18 20:33:31
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