what are you in the mood for she said from the chair she was staning on in barely any clothes, because it was hot.  but im never hot.

im in the mood for some thing new.  something  i've never seen.  i want my eyes to burn from radiant brilliance.  i want pouring rains again.  bring back the rain i want to swim in it.  jump off noahs arc and take a chance in the flood.  i'll drown to be reborn if i have to.  god, baptise me in experience.  sarafice my fear at the altar.  reach into my soul and pound out of it the purity of life, squeeze all the juice and fire from it. 
im in the mood for flying, soaring to the outer reaches of the atmosphere, slowly suffocating on the way up, sucking every drop of oxygen out of the thin air and then exploding like a big fat red balloon.  falling to the ground in pieces i reach for my arm with my teeth.  i kick my torso towards my neck, my hips shimmy their way back.  im together again by the time i reach the ground. 
dig, i'll dig to the center.  you haven't lived until you have seen the middle of it all.  the center of the universe humming softly beneathe our feet.  like a womb it incubates the soft molten earth. 
it heats me up.  heats up the trillions and billions of molecules that make up laura may.  they spin around, jumping and fizzing with enthusiam, orgamisming, mindless, frenzied, fucking particles accelerated beyond the speed of light and now i cant slow down.. now im just going crazy
grab my hand.  my particled ,fractured mess of a hand.  solidify me.   make me real again.  i cant see a reflection in the mirror.  i cant see anything clear any more.  peace is gone, pieces are just left.
i dissapear completely. 
i reappear at the end, that  doubles as the begining and triples as infinity.  the place where god sits in his white lumincent robes, long white beard, sit and comtemplate.  sit and talk to me on a porch bench swing of all places , nestled in the clouds of course.  he puts an arm around my shoulder.  i bury my face in his chest.  he laughs.  i smile.  im together again, slighty for a moment, i'll take it.