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My life is mine to make....

Well, glad to say I'm feeling better from my last post. Thanks a lot everyone for the comments and encouragment. I got out of town for the holiday and it helped a bit. I went back to my hometown to visit my gran. I saw a lot of people who used to know me when i was high on drugs and going through some bad shit and talking to them made me feel good about how far i have actually come. I am doing good. I have started my sobriety over and instead of being on day 38 I reep the consequences of drinking about my stresses and am bitter-sweetly on day 7. I do believe tho i learned a lesson. When i am stressing or upset is when i need to distance myself from the pubs and my so called "friends" I can look back and realize what drove me to the pub and what drove me to drink in excess. So if i recognize this i should then be able to learn from it and not do it again right. YES! I also learned that i can not count or rely on anyone but myself to want great things for me. Some things in my life are only important to me so i need to be strong enough to make it happen. I feel good right now. All my stresses are gone for now. I had my surgery and it has turned out well so far i have 4 more weeks until i go back to find out if im ok. I realized that my fathers side of the family is worthless and could give 2 shits about me and my family so i am just going to let it be. No use in me trying so hard if they wont even meet me half way. I will just work more pick up a second job and if i have to take out a loan. Im 2 semesters away from a degree and will go to a university to get a bachelors and start a career. Im good. Getting away from here for a few days even if i had to go face my past(which turned out to be fun)was a well needed visit. I guess i need to give myself more credit and believe in me a little more than i do. Ill get to where i want to be one day and ill let you all know how it goes along the way.