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WHY I LOVE MY BLACK EYE AND OTHER MYTHS !
i am a sadist a person that loves to be beaten and hurt. i am a woman that thinks pain is good and gets off on it. HELL NO I'M NOT! someone asked me last nite "why do you let him do it?". i never thought of it before. i guess by my staying here is the very essence of "letting him do it". it wasn't the question that got me, it was the fact of the word "letting" that irked me. by my weakness and passiveness is that "letting" him do these things to me. i'm not strong. i'm not aggressive. i'm not one of the "women of the new century". i am nothing more than a woman trying to survive here in this world. i am trying to make it through each day with a little dignity left, some hope for tomorrow and faith for another time. all three right now are low real low. i am running on empty here and the gas is way too expensive for me to "fill er up". i will keep on plugging and keep on writing and keep on "keepin on" and get through another day. i will go to work now and leave you with this.

I WROTE YOUR NAMES IN THE SKY,
BUT THE WIND BLEW THEM AWAY.

I WROTE YOUR NAMES IN THE SAND, 
BUT THE WAVES WASHED THEM AWAY.

I WROTE YOU NAMES IN MY HEART,
AND FOREVER THEY WILL STAY, 

i saw this poem and thought of my friends here. my eye will heal, my ego will heal, my spirit will take some time, write more tonight. peace and harmony
Posted by lastblastkl on 2008-03-06 09:26:45 | Rating: n/a | Views: 101


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Posted by
Writer
on 2008-03-06 09:35:47
 
Is it a constant "trying to survive" or perhaps only in the low times?
 
 

Posted by
LMarie
on 2008-03-06 10:19:49
 
I have read some of your blogs.
i don't write about the black eyes i have had or the embarrasment i feel when i tell my friends i can't go out because of what he has done to me.
I understand how you feel and i understand what your friends have said because mine have asked me the same question. They won't know how you feel really or why you stay because there not going through what you are.
I stay where i am and i truly don't know why, i love my partner very much i just hate the person he becomes.
Writing helps you but write for yourself and never have to feel you need to answer peoples comments.
Take care x
 
 

Posted by
lastblastkl
on 2008-03-06 21:05:44
 
writer, it is a daily "stay the hell out of his way" and i am usually good at it. i slipped up here. i got in his way. i need to be better. v
 
 

Posted by
lastblastkl
on 2008-03-06 21:08:58
 
lmarie. you are a mirror image of my thoughts. i don't know why i do the things i do. i know why i stay and it isn't love. i hate this man with everything in me. for the time being he's got me but as soon as the fog lifts i'm gone.
 
 

Posted by
lastblastkl
on 2008-03-06 21:11:27
 
blue, i'm happy for your sister. i hope someday to walk out of here, but i simply cannot right now. thank you for your concern.
 
 

Posted by
Nubian
on 2008-03-07 17:57:54
 
Write On my sister, you are getting stronger.
 
 

Posted by
lastblastkl
on 2008-03-07 19:03:51
 
nubian my girl, i am getting pissed off at a lot of shit for sure. not sure it's going to do me any good but it feels alright. something i'm not used to at all. :)
 
 


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