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Today at work was absolutely a piece of history in my life. from the time i walked in the door it was a destined to be a good day. we weighed in and i had lost 4 1/2 lbs this week. yea!!!! happy dance !!!! the divorce diet is working! my breakfast and noon meal were impeccable. got to sit in on the easter menu and decide just what i wanted to prepare. i want the holiday to be festive and filled with delicious fare. fresh made assorted danish and hand made sweet rolls are the morning treat along with the huge spread i have planned and decided on cornish hen and lamb for the lunch menu. i was a pastry chef for two years and have to make assorted desserts with some flair to them. ought to be a very busy time getting ready for this easter sunday but i'm happiest when i'm cooking or baking. my prep cook may not be too happy but i'm pretty easy to get along with. i just want it all to look and smell amazing. and it will i'm sure.
my friend bought a tee shirt for TABASCO SAUCE that says "muy macho". it is the tiniest thing but still too big for him. it has studs and a picture of some maniac dog on the front. is she trying to tell me something? another friend got me a purple duffel to carry him in when i go somewhere. it even came with a purple umbrella (and i used that bad boy today, since it's pouring rain here). then the boss gave us all chocolate bunnies in a bamboo bowl. it was really quite pretty. another friend came in and handed over to cds that he burned of michael buble that i had wanted. i love the song "LOST" and had asked him last week to make me a cd and there they were, only he did another one too. could anything else good happen today? i think i had reached my limit. came home and finished another two chapters of a very erotic book i'm reading. i don't usually read this type of book but i was told i may like it and "who would have thunk?" i do. so i try to read it whenever i can. it definitely gets the old juices flowing.
now that brings me to the title of my blog. the spouse was watching maury povich (yes, even the intelligent, sophisticated men of the world watch maury povich, 'god, give me a break!') on this particular show were women who were finally coming clean about their abusive spouses and boyfriends and the dirty secrets that had been only theirs. these women were crying and wretching and just a mess telling their stories. one was telling her mother through a video because she didn't want to tell her face to face. i finally asked the spouse "what are u watching?". his reply was ( get this) "these poor women have had to keep these things quiet." huh? did i just hear you right? 'these poor women?' you beat me so often i could sell tickets on pay per view. maybe i could get back some of the money u stole from me. but i didn't say a word. i was quiet. then spouse says (and i thought i'd have a stroke). "those men should be ashamed of themselves for what they've done here." i'm thinking 'what the fuck did you just say?'my mouth was getting very ansy. i didn't know how much longer i could control it. then came the cherry on top. "i'd kick someones ass if they ever did that to any of my girls". huh? who said that? must be that nincompoop sitting there because it wasn't any body with a brain. finally i could stand it no longer. and fellow bloggers please forgive me, i thought any and all split lips and black eyes from what i was about to say would be worth the price if i could just say to this asshole/butt munching, dick brained, fucktarded, miserable human being sitting before me and i certainly did! "you are 11 eggs short of a dozen if you can sit there and think for one minute that those men are not you". " you have got to be one of the most memory selective ass wipes ever to litter this planet." "shut the fuck up". i so did. and i didn't care what he did to me. i was ready for the blows to come. i braced myself and half shut my eyes and nothing. thats right nothing. when i opened my eyes he was back watching maury. i gave a HUGE sigh of relief and grabbed my dog and went up stairs to my haunt before it finally sunk in what i had just said. this was priceless. so for now all is quiet on the western front (downstairs). i don't think he'll bother me tonight. (sigh) my daughter told me the other day to please not antagonize him and i normally do not. but there are times when one needs to say something. you cannot just tread water. you have to sink or swim and i decided to swim on this whether or not the shark got me. i don't have much here in maryland believe me i don't. but if i can get a shred of dignity back or a taste of my old self that used to be so spunky and tested the waters constantly then i'm going to do it. i will never be under the control of another human being again. never. peace and harmony |
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Posted by lastblastkl on 2008-03-19 17:15:48 | Rating: | Views: 79
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I apologize for this fool of a man!!!!
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Posted by QUICKCAT33
on 2008-03-20 08:58:28
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OMG!!! Was he taking the piss or what?? I like to hear the new (or is it the old - in the nicest possible sense of the word) you! I used to be told, why couldnt you just let it go, why did you have to argue back, it would have been ok if you'd just kept quiet, but I just thought...why the hell should I? I have my own voice and don't need anyone to talk for me, or silence me. Everyone used to say they missed the old me, but no one missed her more than me. Now she's on her way back, I feel so much happier.
Can't tell you how proud I am of you xxx
hope TS is doing well! xxx
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Posted by chebtastic1
on 2008-03-20 09:00:23
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Somehing must be happening to him....Maybe he is so drunk when he hits you that he doesn't ever remember doing it....naa that can't be it....Do you have any pictures of yourself with the busted lips or black eyes? if so maybe show them to him and say HOW DO YOU THINK I GOT THESE? Maybe the new girlfried? is talking to him about hitting a woman...Who knows, but whatever is softening him, it is a good thing I hope....
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Posted by Hollis
on 2008-03-20 12:07:34
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Great idea about the photographs..and amazing that he's finally connecting the dots. Yes, slowly and stupidly, but he is. You may never hear the words, "I'm sorry." but you sound strong enough to just go on with your life without hearing them. I am hopeful for this pathetic man, but I am more hopeful for YOU, Karen. Rooting for you and so proud of you!
TS is adorable!!! Hug him for me! XXX
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Posted by Ellie2008
on 2008-03-20 15:51:16
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quickcat. thank u for saying ur sorry but u didn't do anything darlin. the spouse is just the names i called him in this post. IN SPADES!
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-03-20 19:53:35
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CHEBTASTIC. i thought i was in the twilight zone. dodododododo if it would'nt have been so pathetic it would've been funny. oh! it is funny! lol he is such an ass.
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-03-20 19:55:31
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hollis, the girlfriend?? is old news! shes been around for a few years. i think its about time they move in together. don't u think?
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-03-20 19:56:34
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i did have photos. i kept them in my journal. the day he got into my journal and read it he threw them out or hell he may have them hidden himself. i have some stuff mostly medical records. i'm just getting brazen as hell aren't i?
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-03-20 19:58:25
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oh ellie! i most definitly will give tabasco a big hug from auntie ellie!
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-03-20 20:02:36
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Remember to get the evidence you have OUT OF THE HOUSE....Put it in a safe deposit box at a bank or some friend or your daughter.....Go back years if you have to....See if the girls have any holiday pictures of you with marks...Any thing you have.....
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Posted by Hollis
on 2008-03-20 22:16:54
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