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i had to work today as i do every saturday. i love working weekends at my job. it's so laid back and everyone is just calmer. no managers around (yea!!!!!) and just no shit to deal with. i have been in such a bad mood lately and on top of that getting little or no sleep the last few nights. not a good formula for sure. i went in to work and did my usual thing. didn't feel like smiling but i wasn't rude to anyone. one of the cnas recently broke it off with her spouse and has begun to give me "advice". now the advice i get here on thoughts is good shit. it's up lifting and solid and if it's not then you can be sure someone else is going to tell them about it. but this woman is nuts with a capital N. i feel sorry for the children involved here. if shes this nuts and her spouse is too, then what chance do the little ones have? she was on me like white on rice. i mean i had not a minutes peace and it was wearing me down. finally she said "i'm going to make you smile". ok, you can try! (i'm thinking) "i hate you so much and i hate what you're doing".WHOA!!! ok,what about that statement is suposed to make me smile? i just looked at her like she was cracked and i think she is. then she slips something into my pocket which i assume is a note. i looked at it later, it was an empty vitamins packet. and the purpose of that was?????????? now i want to get myself lost in my work at this point and try like hell to avoid her,but no luck. she follows me around like a shadow telling me this and telling me that until i was about to explode. i just happened to look and realized i forgot to serve the beautiful donuts i made and just started to cry. i knew i wasnt' crying over the donuts. i was crying over the reason i was upset and this woman. between the two i was a mess. finally took a deep breath and thought "fuck it". donuts will keep til sunday. she has off sunday.
went about my business and realized the MOD (manager on duty) didn't come and say hello. this particular one always does and i look forward to it. after lunch i sought her out and found out that her son got assaulted on the streets of baltimore walking home from work yesterday. six young men attempted to beat the shit out of him. not in a bad neighborhood, not in the dark, but in a nice area IN FRONT of a nice restaurant. people were just literally walking around this kid getting pummeled by 6 others and didnt do a thing to help him. not one. to top it off the young man was talking on his cell to his dad when it started. she said there was yelling and profanity and struggling and then the phone went dead. omg i cannot even imagine what that next 90 mins until they could get hold of him again were like for those parents. can you??? a trucker finally stopped and started yelling and swearing at the 6 guys and they took off. the young man was taken to the local hospital and treated. hes pretty beaten and bruised but ok. maybe a bit more leary of his surroundings and not so trusting of walking home again. the fact that people were actually having to walk around this kid while he was getting the shit kicked out of him just boggles my mind. what did they say? "do you mind letting me through and then you can start beating the shit out of this man again?" i'm not the bravest of people by any means. but i've been on that side of the fist and i can't think that i would just walk by a fellow human being in trouble. the very least would be to call 911. sad commentary on the people in this world.
ok, finished up my work and it was finally time to leave. clocked out and was on my way down the first road i need to be on before the main highway. it is a two way and then goes into a single lane. i was in the lane where you would eventually need to be (do this every day). this lady kept trying to speed up and cut me off and i'm getting so pissed. who the fuck does she think she is? "move the hell over bitch", i'm thinking here. but she just keeps at it. i couldn't go any where so i stayed steady and kept going. getting closer to the area where you either have to shit or get off the pot and i decide at this point she is not coming over in front of me. i step on the gas and leave her to eat my fumes. so by now i'm ready for the main highway and all the assholes i know are going to be there. i get on and go around the slow lane. driving up the road back in the slow lane there is a car following me. it comes up around me on the left and then just stays side by side. will move maybe a half car length up and then slows down and i'm just cruising and i pass him a half dozen times not even trying but doing 60. he just keeps doing this and it is pissing me off HUGELY. finally i just step on it because i want to lose this nutcase. i hit the gas and what do you know? so does he! we are traveling up this highway side by side like we're freaking nascar drivers. he would not let up on me at all. i would normally have gotten scared but i was in PISSED OFF MODE so bad i could have chewed nails. i never get this mad. i never get this pissed. i just get hurt. i just get very upset. I WAS MORE THAN PISSED OFF HERE! I SAW RED ! i saw that there was very,very little traffic ahead and thought if i could get up to them i could get over (maybe) in the left lane and get away from this guy. i sped up a bit more and moved over a lane and passed a car and then cut back over. i saw another opening and moved ahead and cut over and then floored my gas and just left this asshole right where he should have been left. he tried to move too but he couldn't catch up to me at this point so i just kept it floored and moved. after i got up the road sufficiently i slowed down and calmed down and thought "what the fuck did i just do?" was that a case of road rage or just the rage that may have been building in me for years? is this the way of my future? am i going to get this pissed and angry forever at people that irritate me? it came from no where and just grew. who did this guy think he was? jeff gordon?? i was glad to get home and was even more proud of my jeep. we kicked some ass today.
now for some nice news. as of yesterday at 240pm i became the proud owner of TABASCO SAUCE. he came home with me and is doing fine. slept with me last night and slept all night (better than me). right now hes under my chair biting my foot. is that normal? he stares at me a lot. probably thinks i'm funny looking and alien. hes pretty funny looking too, come to think about it. doesn't eat much yet and thats ok, can't afford cavier yet. i gave him his toy, but the toy is bigger than him so hes a bit intimidated. he doesn't walk so much as hops, whines when i leave the room, pretty much pees where he wants (thank god for puppy pampers), and actually likes my cat (although the cat just sits and wonders how he got a sibling). i'm bonding i'm sure and if i were in a better mindset i'm sure i'd enjoy him more. but time will tell. right now we're two strangers trying to learn to put up with each others little habits. him? my strange bed habits (not sleeping)! me? his constant staring and peeing! i'm sure it'll all work out. peace and harmony!
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Posted by lastblastkl on 2008-03-15 17:03:33 | Rating: | Views: 93
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Tabsco Sauce....awwww how cute :) when will you put up a pictue of him.
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Posted by Nubian
on 2008-03-15 19:52:34
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as soon as i can. he is cute. cannot wait til u see him.
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-03-15 20:17:51
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After the puppy period, you will be fast friends and he will be your most loyal man for life. I love how you two are beginning new lives together. Enjoy him and post the photos when you can. Can't wait to see him!
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Posted by Ellie2008
on 2008-03-16 14:02:44
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Maybe the mad man in the car was your soulmate wanting to profess his dying love for you!!!!!!!!!!And you missed it@!!!!!!!!!!!haha kidding..... You rage you feel now adays, is very normal...Don't worry about it..Until your life settles down, you will go thru this stuff....BUT YOU ARE NORMAL....
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Posted by Hollis
on 2008-03-17 19:01:58
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ellie,i hope you see the pics. hes a cutie!
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-03-17 19:35:15
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hollis, i hope you're right. i seem to fly off the handle really easy these days at the dumbest shit. not my little munchin riley or my littlest munchkin TS but just stupid stuff that shouldn't matter at all and myself mostly for doing stupid shit and thinking stupid shit and just generally being not the brightest bulb in the box.
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-03-17 19:38:17
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