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OK, I've been reading with my morning coffee and commenting on posts for a while now today. I sometimes get lost in the reading and forget to make comments but I still do read them (sorry btw for that). I disagree with some and agree with others. Today was no exception. Finally I found one that just plain pissed me off yet again.....
I won't go into the specifics of it so no one will get angry but its the same old shit again and again and I'm thinking 'Jesus, will you just get over it?'. I'm so tired of the woman bashing crap. Who do men think they are that we 'need' them in our lives? Do they ever think that we actually 'don't' need their pathetic selves? Do they ever think that maybe, just maybe we can do just fine ourselves and that we think with our brains unlike them who think between their legs?
I stayed in an abusive marriage for so long...too long. I stayed when the kids were home bc of them. I stayed when they left bc of finances. I stayed when the finances got better bc of this bc of that. I could still be there making excuses to be there had i not gotten a good shot of reality. I got raped my this asshole and beaten one last time and that nite i thought i was dead. I truly believed I would never see anyone again, that my time had come bc this fucker had simply gotten out of control and decided to end my life. Fuck him! (excuse language)
Now I read how others remain in relationships bc of much lamer reasons than i ever had. Why stay in any relationship that is dead? Have you not done all you can do to revive it? Is there yet more shit you can possibly do? Will you love each other tomorrow, next week, next month? You will most likely never love each other ever again! Why continue to beat a damn dead horse more and more? You will never, but never get this time again. Every day you waste in that relationship is one day closer to your demise! Don't people get that? You cannot live life over again. This is not a dress rehearsal for the 'next time'. We can't simply turn back the hands of time and redo it over. I have learned that in the worst way ever. I have wasted my entire life wishing things could have been one way or that maybe they would be another. It was so bad at one point (not too long ago) that I thought of suicide bc I figured I screwed up any chance to be happy with anyone again. My life was done and I was alone for the duration of what time i had left here. I couldn't face life with out someone to share things with...dreams, hopes, desires, love, touches. I had someone reach out to me and i thank God everyday for him. He saved me in so many ways I could never repay him if i tried for the next hundred years. He touched my soul and continues to almost everyday. To him I say 'thank you'. You are indeed my 'bad ass'.
So i read how others try and mend marriages...I get it. But if after so many years its still not working, you don't love her, she can barely tolerate you, give it a rest already!
Now, I know the drill...........IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHATS BEING SAID , SIMPLY DON'T READ IT!! got that! I like the writer very much. I think they toot their own horn too much and minimize their own blame for the bad things that often seem to happen in their life. I know they comment on my blogs and disagree privately to me also. I take no offense to that at all. I can delete anything these days with a click of a button....love that btw. Anyway....I'm done and I feel so free! I've left my demons at the door and I'm done ranting until I read some more shit! But isn't that what we all do? Read and rant! Live and rant! Love and rant! I supose thats just life!
SK
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Posted by lastblastkl on 2008-09-08 11:49:47 | Rating: | Views: 110
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How do you see it from a mans' point of view?
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Posted by mathewst17
on 2008-09-08 11:56:14
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I don't 'see' anything from a man's point of view! I 'see' it from a human point of view!
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-09-08 12:04:54
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You keep on ranting if it makes u feel better, everyone else does lol
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Posted by deepthinker21
on 2008-09-08 12:16:51
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deepthinker...thanks for the support. I've read enough here to know that we all rant and rave at stuff. Its funny though that people begin thinking immediately 'Is it me?' and its usually not!
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-09-08 12:36:53
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Well, I know it isn't me :) Love Rants...have them all the time!!!!
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Posted by slowtolearn
on 2008-09-08 15:08:06
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"Why stay in any relationship that is dead?"
Many people are weak and need another person to latch onto, i.e. a significant other. They can't stand the thought of being alone; so they would rather be miserable with someone, as long as they have someone.
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Posted by AnotherDeadHero
on 2008-09-08 15:23:00
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very powerful post - this line particularly got to me: "Every day you waste in that relationship is one day closer to your demise!" I get sad when I think about time I wasted on people, things, worries, concerns, etc.
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Posted by Meredith
on 2008-09-08 17:08:53
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STL, No, it wasn't you....LOL
ADH, I heard those words in my head time and time again.
Meri, I get physically nauseous when I think of it. I can never get that time back. That is almost (to me) overpowering. It takes my breath away.
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-09-08 18:08:02
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Look how strong that time spent has made you, though! If for no other reason than that, it was worth it! This is not the same woman who, just a few short months ago was defeated and demoralized. This is SUPER K!! I love how you sound here!
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Posted by BootLady
on 2008-09-09 20:57:21
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BL...I thank you and I thank you again!!!! You were there weren't you???? i remember ur comments back then too. We've come a long way baby! (as they say)...
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-09-09 23:43:25
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gotta love that rant! My mum stayed in an emotionally abusive relationship for 7 years, and finally got out BEFORE she got married to the douche bag. I agree wholeheartedly with you! Good on you! And good on you for getting out!
WELL DONE!
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Posted by Nyssy
on 2008-09-09 23:59:06
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nyssy, thanks for the comment and thanks for the support. I hope your mum is happy.
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-09-10 00:11:24
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