this is my last post in maryland unless i get the house and come back. i've found out my options aren't too bad. assholes don't always finish first and nice people don't always finish last. it's amandachronicles birthday and i feel like i'm getting the gift. sorry tac, but i'm taking it too. i'll send u something later. this has become my birthday (of sorts) also. my day of reckoning, my day of new beginnings. my daughters house is a nice size but i won't be having dinner parties there or things like that. but i can come and go as i please. it's only about 10 min (maybe less) from here so i won't be any further for work. the only downfall is spouse will know where i am shortly. he will make my daughter feel like shit and give her the silent treatment but we talked about that this morning and she says "whats new?". the girls washed their hands of him a while ago and so they just want whats best for me right now. financially it will be an up hill thing but i've never been a material girl, just a basic needs person. maybe i'll get someone to support me in the style i would like to be accustomed to. LOL just kidding, just kidding! i'll do as chance777 suggested. i'll set up a pay pal and collect. whoa ho! just kidding again. i'll be fine. may have to sell my diamonds and mink and oh, my mercedes will definitely have to go. anyone need a car? cheap? bargains here! sale today! my life?? not for sale at any price!!! i just want to talk and talk here because i know that as soon as i stop i'll unplug and leave. my daughter is waiting downstairs. actually shes picking out some things i told her she could have, so i could say shes shopping. i'm sad to be leaving a house that has been good to me and has sheltered me for a long time but it has served its purpose and now its time to let go and let life move me on. tabasco sauce says bye to maryland and hello to pa too. jen has two boxers. that ought to be cute. little munchkin who fits in the palm of my hand against two adult boxers. no worry though tabasco has me in him. hes an ass kicker. hes a winner. hes my baby. well, i gues i'll go now. see u in pennsylvania my friends.